this is my own blog

2008-04-28T16:57:00.000+08:00

omggggg ive not blogged for ages.
aiya i'm always at my LJ
www.candyballoons.livejournal.com
there, go [:
and ignore the previous post.
so retarded. HAHAHAHAA
byebye :D

choochoooo!

2008-03-17T22:19:00.001+08:00

hell0 world in my blog. iskandar {:

look out, she's coming

2008-03-06T17:44:00.002+08:00

cheerful sky and heavy raindrops just contradict each other.

new site, fresher start, better expressive words & faster web.

http://candyballoons.livejournal.com/

TYTY[: link me up.

however this blog, i'm not gonna abandon it cos i've had it since 6 yrs ago [:
i'll come by occasionally.

freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze time

2008-02-27T23:27:00.002+08:00

late mornings today, took off to school at 7.45 [:
breakfast at 8, and up to class
OH Mayvelle gave me a present! ahas, thank you so muchhhhh
so swweeett, plus she's the second person to give me a present
HAHAHA i had english C.T, REALLY STUPID because it was all about landmines.
like wtf was that about (?!)

went off to TM at 1530 with Cal & Jacinta & Naqibah
i collected my made-shirt [: super overjoyed.
heeeeeee, i like it alot andand im looking forward to saturday

then i left for tuition at 6 and ended by 8.
Uncle sent me home [: THANKS!

ahhhhh please freeze time now so i'll not turn a year older and follow the dates to Os ):
i dislike but anticipate it.
MUCH IRONY, it's 28th February tomorrow and i'm wide awake, typing away.
G'night loves, i'll see you when I meet God.

it's time to wake up

2008-02-26T22:47:00.002+08:00

suck in the air and get a hold of your heart
12 weeks of teaching and that's it.
it's gonna be over. SAC, School, lessons, teachers, RTC, assembly, school song, pledge, national anthem, recess, canteen food, the breeze from the window, the stupid cracking of jokes, the sarcasm in 4/6, the inside jokes of the class, the times we've been tricking teachers, the times we'd rush for nasi padang queues etc.
Lastly, the faces we see each and every morning on the way to school, in the canteen, along the corridors, in the toilets, in RTC, at the podium, by the foyer, teachers, GO staffs, cleaners etc.
Time is certainly not on our side this time round.
It's the opponent of all Os and Ns students, given the time to snap back to reality now.
its bout time we get down to business, get to the point of this year, striving for the best.
aiming for what we want in life, start making wise decisions without having to depend on a fallback. be there for those who has fallen and pick them up, get them on their feet and set them to fly off again but dont bring yourself down as well.
it's bout time we focus on studies and not late night movies or partying weekends anymore.
it's bout time we make our parents and teachers assure of our capability. most importantly, proving to yourself that you are the best of yourself. you can if you want to. trust me, ive been touched by those words from -.
i tried, i got it and it gave off such a satisfaction. seek help before it's too late and never ever say you can't, because deep down you KNOW you can but you chose not to!

from here, i write off my last few words before i lullaby myself with my bedtime book.
thursday is the day i change. thursday is the last of me being the past shakeela who was notorious and rebelled. change, for the better. change, for yourself. change, to succeed.
obstacles in life might bring you down but dont let it hold you there for too long else, you'd drown. you might struggling but if you give a good fight, you will survive and you will come to realise that you did it, with your determination.

goodnight world.

silent suicide

2008-02-25T20:20:00.002+08:00

never really thought as things that way, but nevertheless, i should give it a break and let it go.
have you ever wondered why some people could be so hypocritical?
everyone is, in a way or two but i've never met someone so - as you!
fuck off shit. stop pissing me off cos i had enough.

back to my day, it went by too fast once again.
poor Nad fell on her back today, i hope she's fine.
i feel so debative now. i needa slam her.
OH! ohemgeeeeee, yesterday, Jacinta's party at Equinox was GOOD.
I tried pasta, OMFG, it was fucking fly!
GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT
lavished buffet topped with a beautiful view of the City.
it was so... PRETTY!
literally, i loved the freaking toilet and smoking area.
Dayymn Singapore has such a fine hotel. I'd pay for a second!

ttrls today was okay, it was held in the fish tank so time flyed fast enough.
cabbed home after some bbq fries and bbt.

3 more days [:
need i be reminded that im sooooo old already.
first i was dreading being 14 and now, ima be 16?
eat shit la, soon im done with Os, poly goes and ima work, soon id be in some office wondering wtf i did 5 years back.
OKAY forgive the vulgar language used.
I realised ive been pretty fruatrated lately and i dislike it
i dont feel myself, i feel different.
its nice but, i feel like a glass among the diamonds.
the one that pricks though i dont seem like it.

UGH. bring me some flowers, conversation for hours to see if we really connect.
fuck that.

HE WAS MY NIGHT TIME, THOUGHT I WAS HIS STAR, BUT I WAS WRONG

hershey kisses from me to you

2008-02-19T17:25:00.003+08:00

Start of the week ; MONDAY

like what can i say, today went by like a breeze.

started pretty lethargic in the morning

but VE took up most of the morning.

Mrs A is 3 months pregnant!

End of the week; TUESDAY

yup, okay not literally end of the week

but end of schooling week.

There's camp on Wed till Fri at TP

haha omggg i have a chance to see EC!

hurrayyy and cousin better meet me tmr, else i'd punch him

*we chatted just now. i tried my luck by getting home early and yes,

lady luck was on my side [:

played games and webcammed. HAHA

dont look back at a new direction

i loved you once,

need a protection

you're still a part of everything i do

i wanna get a spongebob tattoo!

e-dit;

omggg tuition tonight

Dear God, please give me a live.

MT MYEs : 3rd march

noooooooooooooo

People, my party's on 1st march, you guys all invited

contact me bout it ; fiftysix_@hot

LOVEEEEEEEEE

11 february 08

2008-02-11T22:26:00.000+08:00

heLLLLLL000000

okay im in the mood to bloooggg

why?

heeeeeeeeeeee[phone conver]

i went to the airport todayyyy to fetch Nad's Pops and Nana

haha, Uncle Lloyd gave us a ride back to Tamp. Thankss!

came back online by evening.

(sigh) It's been a confusing day, so many things to confront but i'd rather not talk bout it at all.

Definately, not gonna confront that * tmr. Such a turn off, obviously.

Ironic how one person can make you all smiles and take it away the next second?

It's so common now, realise(?)

I'm my own worst enemy, I give it up

Put me out of my misery.

im weak, it's true

2008-02-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

hello peoples of this world.
cny mood much? bet you guys are getting rich eh?
so much for the smiles we had and times we laughed
went to ecp today with nad and anthea. omg all i have to say is that it was such a warm day.
TSK where's the wind when i need it?
im such a weakling when it comes to this
poopsyloops, happy collecting everyone. short post here[:
NIGHT!
needless to say, i fell for you right on through.
no need explanation or words, cos these tears explain themselves.
iloveyou.

She's a fallen angel

2008-02-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

Eve of CNY

today, cabuted off sch. heh

well, it was really last minute. but..

whatever

then off to Bedok to have breakfast with girlfriends.

took a train to Orchard and met RajjyPudgey there

HAHA nice name. then we went to walkwalk, looking at HMV most of the time

then walked to MRT and got back to Tamp

went to --'s house but we met Yunos before that.

then got to her house and watched this show by Nicole Kidman called The Others.

veryvery interesting story cos it has a twist to it.

unpredictable ending and nice touch to it

then i foudn her magic ball and played with it.

soon the guys also got kinda psyched bout it and Yunos was soooo amused by it

super funny la his laughter

he was like " omg correct ahhh shiiitt omg true!!!"

hha we left by 5.30 and walked to inter and posted letters then i took 38 home.

you know ah, krystal and yunos were happily talking by themselves

then leave me and Jenjen alone behind to talk know.

but supposed to be krys and jenjen talk know

SMART ah. haha but it was fun meeting them

another day with girlfriends i miss [:

when you dream, there's a chance to find

2008-02-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

sometimes when you put in effort, the outcome differs.
sometimes when you give it your best, the results are sour.
same applies to love.
sometimes you love but just never get it back in return.

at times, no one really understands that word.
it's frequently misused and it's been said too often.
at times, i wonder why people love.
for the sake of having company or something more?
at times, people think love is about enduring the painful wait for someone
but i guess it's not, trust me i've experienced it.
at times, love might make people seem vulnerable
capability of a powerful word could change many things

love can't be written on paper
it can't be explained in proper words.
it's a series of constant over-powering feeling,
maybe something no one even knows.

it's nothing ordinary, nothing simple
it could be but often complex
we wait for an answer of a relationship
much to be sought and explained

it's possibly haven, fantasy world for two
some hurt who the ones they love
others listen to their loved ones hurt
or even talk about their own love.

patience, you might say, is the key
but having to wait for years ,
some still can't find it.
so what and where exactly is love?

catch you if i can

2008-01-31T22:10:00.000+08:00

how come you're not online ):

fallen angel

LOL okay another loooooong day in school today total of 7 subjects including PE, tell me about it.
i passed math test! and i ALMOST passed my history test. apparently, i need to focus on point. [: but good attempt riiiight HAHA she commented that i studied, but i didn't (?)

well, tmr's Feb and shit, i'm getting old.
oh i caught The Mist just now with Dave and hell, it gave me like SHOCKS throughout and Dave can't stop laughing at me, WTH LAAAA. not funny okay, i was honestly shocked.
it's an interesting show haha though it's NC16, it was just for language i guess and gore, maybe (?) SICK! & i got through without showing IC or whatever, technically i AM 16 this yr anyway. so who cares :D

went a lil bonding time with Mum around TM and Ep, okay fine i got some stuffs.
TG tmr's Friday! Finally the end of the week and i feel better already.

You know i sometimes honestly feel like i dont know how to balance two sides of my friends. really, im lost i wanna be with my clique but i'd feel bad bout my other friends and i hope both sides understand if i make a decision, i just feel lost now. i love my clique so much but it's as though there's so much emptiness, thats what i feel. i hope CNYhalfday helps us catch up on each other . i miss you guys so much, even though i see you guys everyday. maybe it's just the whole hw thing that's keeping us away or maybe it's just how i feel. i don't know but it cannot drag on this way. i wanna mend things the way it used to be.
i love both sides

but i really wanna let my favourite girlfriends know that i want things to work out well between the 5 of us.

♥ i love you guys so much.

let's be more than this

2008-01-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

omgeeeee, i hatehatehate mondays, awfully a thorn in the side.
piling assignments that's toppling, messy schedule that's making me like death.
i almost can't feel my heart beat.
insanity drives and i'm still alive(?) pretty amazing.

it's been like a block of trapped endless paranoia screams.
still, moving like a heavy load and seemingly an eternity.
O levels, you better make my future good cos' i'm slogging for you.
i don't wanna screw up at this point of time. I have to catch on my accounts and history is still such a bummer to me, clueless. I need a map.

to lie and do yoga, is like sitting down in orchard's human slide during christmas.
i need a break. i need chocolate. i need air.
i wanna go to ECP to cycle once again and say OMGGG WATCH OUT loudly.
i despise what i have to come home to every schooling day.
i detest having to rise in the blind mornings and work my brains off.
Mr Einstein, have you enough time to build that time machine I've been asking for?
I'm in desperate need of it like I'm in desperate need of some fresh air.

the month of Jan is ending and i'm here blogging, finding a way of escape.
[glass menagerie inference] escape from reality of completing my cumulative graphs.
apparently, i'm becoming more and more restless. I'm trying so hard to get it all out of my head and go ahead but GOD, i'm human. Spare me and the rest a thought.
It's prolly just me, I needa adjust to what I have to face and plusplus, it's the beginning of the year and great, i have like 9plus more months to endure.

February is peeking and crashing down on my head. Usually, we'd be thinking of where to go and what to do next weekend and i'd be out with irwan and the rest on sat nights, esplanading or something but NOPE, not this time. no more nonsensical shits and no more late night gigs.
no, no more. no more comments, i just need some peace and quiet.
anyone care to join for Cloverfield? I heard it's a your-gonna-puke show due to the shakiness of the first person camera. Heh, G'dnight world [:
i see you shining like a candle in the dark

escapada' le song

They taped over your mouth
Scribbled out the truth with their lies
Your little spies

crush
crush
crush
crush crush

Nothing compares to a quiet evening aloneJ
ust the one, two I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreaming again
Let's be more than this

If you want to play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, let's play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

Rock and roll, baby
Don't you know that we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
I need something to sing about
Rock and roll, hey
Don't you know, baby, we're all alone now?
Give me something to sing about

you're making me smile, honestly

2008-01-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

if we were a movie

you'd be the right guy

and i'd be the best friend

that you fall in love with

in the end we'd be laughing

watching the sunset fade to black

show the names

play the happy song..

standing close to you

2008-01-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

here i am

this is the moment

here i am

feel the love between us

from now, a start of something new

my life is now complete when i'm standing

standing close to you

i woke in a dream

and somewhere in between

this time i got it right

there I stood in front of you

there i realise my wish might just come true

this time i'm on my flight.

the thoughts of you linger at the back of my head. stop coming back.

ALIVEEEEEEEEEE ALIVEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2008-01-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOO

okay! latest to unlatest updates!

hahaha im so sorry blog, i abandoned you. I really didnt mean to.

I'm sorry so here's a chunk of pics! :D

certified black belt, cause im 16 this year :D

TERI'S PARTY ON THE 19TH

Jasmine and Step sister.

DanceFloor

alamak, obscene. sorry. LOVE!

Moviedates with XY, Catherine & Calesta.

Dora the E-mo-xplorer

SkatePark Night with Clique+June!

ME, Ank, Nad, June, Thea & Van

Pretty-eyed boy with that candy smile, i have a crushcrushcrush on you [:

sebutir bintang di taman seni, cahayanya berseri

2008-01-10T21:51:00.000+08:00

jump 5 times and say ouch poopoo! IN ORCHARD

Whoa, I totally need a break from a week of school.

It's gone by, pretty fast I must say.

Math is quite the subject I'm disliking and I'm totally falling asleep in phys/chem.

But I always slap myself up stright to pay attention, hoping the words get into my brain.

I'm feeling dead beat on a second week, Thursday already

Lack of sleep. Lack of TV. Lack of rest. Lack of time.

I went for the TP open house today

It was H-U-G-E. I like the place and all but i'm still as confused as i was

thinking bout what course I'd be taking in the future and stuff.

I took lunch at the Engineering block's canteen and went to the IT's to meet my cousin/bro

* * * * * * [: !

LOL, you can never figure that out.

anyway then i cabbed to eastpoint to get my phone repaired.

Screwed up W910i, Im getting it back on Wednesday

WHAT A DREADFUL WAIT!

but fret not, i still have a spare phone to use :D

i'm so sick of life, it's so boring.

words too overdramatic

two thousand and eight,

2008-01-01T16:43:00.000+08:00

First of all,

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

okay maybe you guys are like alll psyched about the coming year.

probably for school, work whatever. but well not for me

oh-eight is the year i gotta work my ass off for the big Os, and honestly i'm dreading it.

Okay, I don't wanna spoil that whole good atmosphere of a brand new year

Just that the whole end-of-the-year-tension is getting to my head & it really, really sucks.

So wth! HAHA enjoy while I can, oh and clique, school starts tomorrow not Thursday, MY BAD!

well, I hope things get more interesting as the year goes by, I'm awfully bored already.

Someone come watch One Missed Call with me soon?

Tag Replies;

Ankita; Yeah i think that the next time a gig is coming up, you'd be the first one i'd call.

Mayvelle; Hey, Happy New Year to you too. Brand New Year, Brand New Everything :D

Good luck.

wheehaaa

2007-12-18T20:15:00.000+08:00

okay like woohoo,
Hady won then Dasmond got the award
5566 is in Singapore like yay!
haha then Luo Zhi Xiang alsoooo

I received my good progress award letter today, yayyy i getting MONEYYY hahahahaha
then umm, i received what Dasmond sent me by snail mail.
thank youuuuuuuuuuu
ahhh haha

picspicspics!
eh Hady sexy ah when he sang Beautiful Day, seriously. go watch my youtube video.
sexy siaaaaaaaaa. hahahaha

His snailmail to me [:

tysm,wahhhhhhhhh! xD

the GPA letter

hooohooo I saw Baihakki the HOT soccer player yesterday at TM!
so tall la he! he was eating at LJS heeeheeeee

me and Dasmond[:

do we both look the same as before?
haha he damn cute la. made my day :D!

S[:

Oh yeahh i bought my 2oo8 pencil box readyyy hahaha I LOVE IT
and bought my Popular stuffs. wahhh i think i ripped like 200 off my mum
HEEEEEE
toodles everyone

yayyyyyyyyyerrrsss

2007-12-17T01:03:00.001+08:00

HADY IS THE ASIAN IDOL
hoooorayyyyyyy ;D

MCR MCR MCRRAAAAWWRRRRRRRRR

2007-12-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMFG, MCR LIKE SO FCUKIN RAWKED THE FCUKIN UNIVERSEEEEEEEE
it's like WHOOOOOOOOOOOOT
NOTHING BEATS IT MAN
THE MOSH SUCKED AT FIRST BUT IT WAS OKAYYY
I GOT OUT OF IT ONCE I GOT MY VERYVERY SATISFIED CLOSE UP VIEW OF HIM
ahhhhhhhhhhh<3

ahahha Shar & Haziq & if i'm not wrong, Sham as well got all the way to the barrier right under Gerard's nose!
FCUKSHIT! hahahahaha Shar threw his armsocks at Gerard and Gerard wore it like WAHAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT ahhhhhhhhhh

made alot of friends there and the clique we were with was damndamn fun and rowdy.

People were blowing up balloon condoms before they came out hahahaha and the guys were trying to burst it. like we went RAAWWRRRRRRR and pushing and pushing. HAHAHAHAHAHA
Shar's such a survivor and he made a confession to me! HAHAHAHA :D

shar's a crazy boy, totally whacked.

anyhoooosss, it was all worth it even though there were times when i had -'s leg between mine and all. and someone's ass infront of my *, SO WRONGGGG but for GERARD WAY, helllllllllll i don't give a shit
hahaha so manymany scene kids and so manymany hotttttttttttttt ang mohs!
i tell you, it's like H-E-A-V-E-N on Earth

Ankita, trust me, you wanted to be here so badly like F-U-C-K.

okayokay enough, picture posts another time.

ps: i really dont have much motivation to come online anymore, WHYYYYYYYY ):
looking forward to get a card from someoneeeeeee :D YAYYYYY

Tag Replies;
people, i'm not ignoring you or anything la ok.Im sick and i gotta cut down my bill and MAMAT, stupid you called my home ah. you mad or what. spank you la. i'll call you guys once everything's settled ok? imy guys too. takecare

anthea, what's becoming of us? or wait, what's becoming of me....):

The Hostage.

2007-11-30T15:24:00.000+08:00

I FELT YOUR WARMTH .

chineeeese songs are back to my head once again[:
zhang hui mei's Ren Zhi is one that i'll never get sick of
anywayyy yesyes, tonight's the night.
Leaving my house at 3am so you people can contact me till around umm, 4 maybe?

Driving up to Ipoh for the first night in an MPV.
those 7-8 seater i guess. GAHHHHH so the whole of this afternoon, I've been doing last minute uploads in my phone like songs and pictures*.

Just read his blog's updates. Seems like he's having a really enjoyable time. Many pics and wow, additional cruise. Lucky bum. mmhmmmmm ismh. Coming back on Monday i think.
{:

Whereas I'll be back on Tuesday. Will be bunking in the hotel room with my Sis so my mum has to stay with Mrs R. My niece is following as well! haha My mum kinda tricked her into thinking that there are rabbits in Cameron. -.-'

MYBG is such a beautiful dancy tune. listen to it. Taufik's latest album is quite alright. Though i wished he'd write NEWer songs. mmm, oh yeahhhh I just started out my new tuition at KR.
It's alright, there were weird people but there are normals. HHA. okayyyy
I'm off to do moreeeee uploading and to take my lunch now.
will try to get online once I find the chance to. take care ya'll!

Sunshine to a flower. That's how you are to me.

Tag Replies;

Anthea; heyyy i tried to comment at your LJ but i couldn't. sth to do with my IP? hmm but nvm. heyy will call you tonight later on okay? and HEYYYYYYYYYY back to Andrea for me. IMY!

i didn't get a chance to bid goodbye

2007-11-27T01:32:00.000+08:00

I have nothing much to blog about tonight
just a few updates.
did i mention that im leaving for cameron highlands soon?
This Saturday at three in the morning!
haha Probably wont be able to sleep cause i gotta pack soon.

Recently, have been doing rounds to prepare myself for the weather at Highlands.
wow, i can barely wait to leave Singapore.

fresher air, flowers, hotel beds, rosycosy lights,coolersofter wind.

Honestly, i have such a disturbing feeling in me.
i really feel that it's because i didn't say a goodbye in any form to him when he left.
it's really not a nice feeling but i guess he's safe and sound there.
it's 1.46am here means that it's 8.46pm there.
imh.

let's share an umbrella, BABY

2007-11-23T16:20:00.000+08:00

my baby driving me crazy

today, my daily routine totally got me head over heels with BABY.

:D Dougies Poynter is like uber hot, including Martin Johnson & Eric but then i

wouldn't wanna cheat on BABY. heeeeee

LOVE HIM OH SO MUCH.

So anyway, i'm going out tonight

but i made a promise to myself to grab starbucks before i leave

and i need to show the picture of the perfume i wanna order from the shop.

So gotta take BABY's sample pic of the Bone Daddy collection and show that Aunt.

somewhere in my memory

i've lost all sense of time

and tomorrow can never be

cause yesterday is all that fills my mind

love is a strange & funny thing, aint it BABY?

it drives you mad too.

uhhhhh, anyway i so wanna go shopping at Dorothy Perkins.

Since i can get a staff discount from cousin from another aunty, all's good.

BABY rates 10 for last night. LOL

inside joke{:

iloveyouBABY.

by the way everyone, new blog song

Kitty Kat Shirt by PlainWhiteTs

Tag Replies;

Li-Za; hey bitch. eh what busy. you're the one. busy with mr allthat. HAHA ring me up!

ANTHEA; here you go, updates and more. btw i love my BABBBYYYYY wheeeee!

& i can't stand the way he smiles

2007-11-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

SMILE FOR ME, ONCE AGAIN

Hello[:

I'm so glad to blog about today, haha

After drum course, I took train to EP to dropby but as i was walking

I took a peep from the station. It wasn't clear but my eye caught YiFong.

My thought straight away went like, " eh Dasmond could be there haha!"

So i tried my luck and yes, he was! :D

Grab a couple of shots when they were shooting Shoot 3

Then got a pic with Dasmond[:

THANKS!

Do takecare on your trip to Egypt ya? Stay healthy!

a third shot, captured&sealed

Haha then i saw them put up the billboard banner of Taufik's Autograph session,

since my sister was there, I decided to attend it

and well, here you gooooo

there's nothing more sweet like a Caramel Frap on a sunday morning Airport here i come once again

i dislike you, specifically.

2007-11-16T17:10:00.000+08:00

Need I say more? I really, really hate you alot.

PLEASE SAVE ME FROM MELTINGGGGGG

kentucky fried chicken and a pizzahut

2007-11-13T20:46:00.000+08:00

MACDONALDS MACDONALDS, kentucky fried chicken and a pizzahut.
HAHAHAHA PRIMARY 5 CAMP. :D

went to meet Ankita today @ EP with Nad & Ger.
i'm just bored nowwww, really really bored.
let me bore you further with lyrics:D

From my youngest years
Till this moment here
Ive never seen
Such a lovely queen
From the skies above
To the deepest love
Ive never felt
Crazy like this before

Chorus:
Paint my love
You should paint my love
Its the picture of a thousand sunsets
Its the freedom of a thousand doves
Baby you should paint my love

Been around the world
Then I met you girl
Its like comming home
To a place Ive known

Chorus

Since you came into my life
The days before all fade to black and white
Since you came into my life
Everything has changed

♥Tag Replies:
SOMEWAN; oh okay, um i didn't see anyone that i know of at the B&Js counter. haha but Hello:D

Paper Love

2007-11-12T16:58:00.000+08:00

went to the airport on like, Saturday (?)
haha yeah, when i got there, i saw someone who looked totally like ZJ!
omg i got a shock cos that person looked at me too and i think i kinda gave him the
WTF YOU LOOK LIKE HIM look.
haha so anyway, after sending Cousin off, went to Popeyes for dinner
haha okay i think my mum caught the guy in pink below looking at me.
HAHA

okay umm picture updates :D

the guitar my dad got me [:

my mum asked, ' is the camera the only function you use?' =.=?!

okay i really can't get him off my mind, I'm sorry.

haha anyway, did you all catch The Noose last night?
It was so funny! I had to juggle My Super Ex GF and The Noose.
Lost is getting boring and i'm losing interest in it.
I'm starting to like Survivor again, though it has nothing much to comment on.
Todd is cute, that's all.
ohhh! and i heard that Van Hudgens isn't in HSM3, Disney kicked her out of the show
and the Latino Cheetah Girl is replacing her. Media said so.
okayyy HEROES tonight at 10, only on HDTV :D

♥ Tag replies ;
Somewan; oh hello. um okayy haha who're you?
ANTHEA; Hey! haha yup go beach go beach.
eh go watch heroes tonight. and i miss your house btw!

That's when I love you

2007-11-10T18:33:00.000+08:00

Honey, why you calling me so late?

It's kinda hard to talk right now

Okay, i'm sorry i haven't been updating much.

I wasn't in from Monday to Wednesday.

Spent those days with Elly & Rach.

Krys & Herman [ Itimi ] came on monday night.

Gah it was a long story luh but i had splendid fun

despite the results of it. haha

I got high on the first night from KTV

The feeling was fabulous.

i think i almost fell at one point of time.

I lost my balance luh. haha

Anyway, back to the point, we saw too many hot people.

Angmohs at penin were the best.They were from highschool.Class trip (?)

The guy in blue(THE HOT ONE!)

totally saw me checking him out, i just had this tendency to look at him

and he obviously noticed and kept turning back.

GAHHHH i died when we walked past and suddenly they came out of the shop

and said, "Hey Ladies "

I didn't exactly know what to do but i turned and he smiled!

haha so duh, i smiled back

Their like somekind of football players in their highschool i guess.

HEEEEEE :D

okay enough Shakeela, enough.

Mmm too much to explain over those days.

Deepavali's at Granny's! I had such urge to see her badly, i dont know why

Family potrait yayyyyyy

haha I love Granny's cooking to the MAX .

(sigh) I collected my books on Friday.

Okay turns out that i'm NOT stopping my drums,

i'm continuing till i take the exam

so that i'll get a certificate. HAHA cool, okay.

So i did attend class today.

It wasn't too bad. I guess i was able to catch up and everything

so it went really smooth

I'm going to the airport tonight to send my cousin off to Italy.

Whoa, it gave me inspiration to speak French after watching his italy trip video.

haha, anyhoooooos, I want a CLIQUE OUTING soon!

BEACH ?

pleeeeeeeassseee haha,

Clique: Conference on Sunday, Ankita's phone ok?

Thankfully, God answered my prayers. He didn't get into RTC, he got the probation sentence.

♥ Tag replies;

MAMAT; eh thanks, my friend didnt get into rtc :D

ANTHEA; haha heyyy! it's updated nowwww:D

mayvelle; mine was alright i guess. my parent's rewarded me so YAY. haha i got new phoneeee :D did you get your w660i?

Janice; yeah! it's been ages. see you soon

don't leave..

2007-11-01T20:51:00.001+08:00

I wish i could change things for you
I wish i could make things better
I wish i could help you out of this
But things have been done, it can't be undone

I dont know what you did
But i wish i erased it for you
I dont know how to comfort you
But i'm here crying my eyes out for you

I'm speechless with nothing left to say
I wanna meet you to say my last goodbye
But it might seem wrong
Cause your girl might think otherwise.

I wish you wouldn't leave, i dn't want you to leave
you're gonna go for SO long and leave me here...
who's gonna call me Princess anymore?
Who's gonna ask me to smile on web anymore?

You and I have grown so close though we're physically apart.
We know we've got a connection. Such chemistry.
Then now it's gonna stop (?)
why, why..
please don't go, don't go...
i cant possibly cheer you up cause im not feeling any better
all i can do, is pray. pray so hard for you.
i want you to be out of this quick..
i dont blame you for anything but why'd you have to drag yourself into this..
why are you so stupid...

i just wish things didnt turn out the way it is.
i dont wanna see you hurt.
now who's gonna be my online watchkeeper?

------------------------------------------
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fal
lI'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
-------------------------------

-Ben KinKs says:
pray hard for me princess
-Ben KinKs says:
pls
-Ben KinKs says:
...
★ Starlight says:
i will. dont you worry ok?
★ Starlight says:
i wish i could make things better for you.
-Ben KinKs says:
hmmm
-Ben KinKs says:
yeah
-Ben KinKs says:
pls do pray for me
-Ben KinKs says:
pls..
★ Starlight says:
i will.
★ Starlight says:
i promise.
-Ben KinKs says:
Shakeela my promise to u...
-Ben KinKs says:
i wont forget u princess

Martin Johnson

2007-11-01T15:29:00.000+08:00

HAHA today was such a hilarious day.
I only managed to sit through one lesson because i was sent home.
why?
HAIR.
lmao, after accounts, JoJo came to class to relief woman bigger than a table.
Duh, she asked me to come to the front and asked me to report to RTC.
Sister Rita sent me home, she wasn't like scolding or anything
It was such a funny scene luh
She called my mum and said that I had to be sent home.
Then i left to class to get my bag
HAHA, on the way out, Mum msged me saying
" Later call me k. The teacher from my school also wants to extend her hair.
Later we go okay. Nvm about your hair colour. Go home first"
HOW HILARIOUS. i started lmao luh.
I mean she's supposed to be nagging and all right(?)
haha what a turn-out.
So then went to RTC. Sister Rita gave me back my earrings that were confiscated before.
How amusing, i didn't even collect last year's ones and i have ALOT in there.
Then i went to G.O to get the permission slip and gave the cheque to bookshop.
Took a bus home. wow, the atmosphere in the bus super shiok to sleep in but then i was messaging Irwan bout the matter la. He called & laughed
Oh well, i got so much time now. haha Gonna sleep!
People are like having lessons now and i'm home watching TV.
Hurray, hair! Probably am gonna meet Mum later on with her friend to show her the place
then i'm gonna show my mum the shop that has the PHONE i want!
yaphoooooooooooo!
g'night[:

Blue Streaks

2007-10-31T19:15:00.000+08:00

Wassabeyyy!

gahh today seemed so retarded but funnayee!

in the morning, we were gossipping luh.

then got up to class slightly late. had Physics then.

Accounts totally sucked because Mdm Yong was being her -y self again

seriously, she's getting on my nerves.

Anyway, Elly came late so then recessed with her, Ankita & Vanisha.

Then we went up for half an hour of acc agains and another hour of maths

Gosh, math was so slack. i was messaging the whole time and that teacher was apparently blind.

Then we went off, didn't stay for malay but went off to bedok inter to meet rachel first.

Got off at Paya Lebar for lunch and went on to CityPlaza to get our hair done again

I got 2 brownblonde streaks and 2 blue streaks.

god am i happy with it or what!

I think Elly got hooked onto it too, haha cheap and chic. DUH!

Prepare for mondaytuesdaywednesday, cause here comes

the drunkard with 5 colours in her hair.

Read My Lips, I'm So Over It

2007-10-29T21:25:00.001+08:00

Hurt at first a little but now

I'm so over it.

This morning, had school.

No assembly but headed straight to Chem Lab so experiments.

My gosh, I found out something so personal

of course, I can't mention it here but EW times a million.

POA sucked because Mdm Yong was crowing her strained voice away.

Such excruciating pain to my ears!

I was so frustrated with her, I doubt I absorbed anything she said in class.

Literature was a pain. Elly & I were planning our scheme for next week.

Such anticipating suspense!!! :D

Recess, Malay,SS

ipraytoGodthatthewomanbiggerthanatabledoesn'tteachusnextyear.bitch.

After school, took a light lunch after Ankita & Nad cut hair.

Bubble tea & barbeque fries = old times.

Gerard dropped by. Entertaining much.

Mum fetched me in a cab to Cisco.

Apparently, her Sergant(sp?) friend asked me to teach her daughter tuition upon hearing my results from my mum.

But it wasn't fabulous or anything luh, i told her.

She said she was really keen so I agreed.

HAHA imagine.

me.

teaching.

funaayyyeee[x

Lunched at LJ with Mum. I bought this white rose ring

It's super super lovely.

hee, so then took train to Eastpoint and met up with Sisters, niece and nephew.

Took the shuttle to CGH to visit my brother.

He's having a surgery NOW.

At this moment i'm blogging. whoa, good luck brudder.

Hmm, there was a HOT doctor, he was angmoh.

he had sleek hair, and body so tan

his voice so low and how charismatic

such a man

HAHAHAHAHA okay overboard.

Had dinner at eastpoint. shopshopshop.

Mum & I have been going around asking bout the phone I want. YAY

I bought my cats NEW collars!

everyone should listen to this song called

She's so love By Scouting for Girls.

Blardy cute song. lmao.

KTV ON WEDNESDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

addiction, much.

Happy Holidays {:

2007-10-28T16:22:00.000+08:00

Bonjour'

Saturday, 27th October 2oo7

Yesterday, family went to Bedok CC for the Nostalgia Aidilfitri o7

My sister was the host and Uncle Jaya was there.

Okay Professor S Jayakumar, sir.

haha the concert was rather messy but alright.

I was fascinated by the Kuda Kompang performance.

Outstanding.

My niece & nephew were the 1st runner up for the

Prince&Princess of Aidilfitri contest.

we got home by dinner and i watches television throughout the night.Hurrayyy!

Sunday, 28th October 2oo7

Today, i met Catherine at TM in the morning. We took off to PayaLebar to have breakfast then walked to CityPlaza. Got our hair done. Thanks Monkey :D Okay Honestly, I'm addicted to it already. All your fault, Catherine.

Trained to Eastpoint to walk abit, ate ice cream and took a 9 home. It's raining now & i hope it rains tomorrow. haha, how random. Okay i'm not exactly confident of hiding my hair for the week but i'd be deadmeat if Jo finds out. I pray to God.

I wanna go again next week to do more so if anyone's interested to come, do contact me! {:

I ♥ Peter Lewis Kingston

say hello say hello

2007-10-26T23:24:00.000+08:00

HELLO !

ahahaha, i'm finally back to blogging.

New link. New Skin. New Page.

Fresh start eh?

Many things have happened so i'll just cut to the chase.

Today, we had mass in the morning.

I must add on that it was a really short, short mass

but that was good. My legs were going numb at that time.

We got back our results after that.

Well, results weren't too bad as i expected.

Somehow I passed and got a point higher than mye.

So i DID deprove a little. Upset? I guess.

I could have done better luh.

But then what could i do anymore right? so well, Nadiya, Ankita & I went to KTV first.

it was closed so we grabbed something light at Macs and met Gerard.

From there, we walked back to KTV and saaaaaaaaaaaang our hearts out.

wooh, i must say, today's karaoke session was G-O-O-D.

Honestly, I had such a great time. Thank you lovelies.

Cabbed home, I was rather tired. Took a cooooooold shower and comp-ed.

RAHH. I wanna get the streaks Catherine was talking about so i'm probably going with her on Sunday this week {:

Alright, that's about it. I'm ending off.

I'm actually waiting for my dodohead cousin Faheem to come.

He said he's coming like half an hour ago but where is he?

GOD KNOWS.

♥ au re voir!

2007-10-15T12:26:00.000+08:00

Hello, hahaha hooray i foud a spare time to blog. I'm waiting for the clique to come over for lunch for Hari Raya! hahaha, i think they're here.
no wait they're not. but anywayyy, i can so smell the food my mum's heating up.
ahhh! anyway saturday's collection was successful, adding last night's.
today, i'm not sure bout the collections but i know that there are more to come
HAHAHAHA plus, i've yet to go visiting with I and the rest.
oh the smell of rendang~~~~
ANYWAYYYYSSSSXXXZZZ, tomorrow is the start of school and i have no idea what to bring at all.there's nothing to bring right? haha i dont even feel like bringing bag to sch tmr.
and like, i feel so lazy to go to school. no motivation at all.
haha ew, last night i dreamt of someone unexpected.
GAHHHH i dreamt that i hit her in the head by accident then i carried her to the sickbay.
and plus this person, i used to like okay.like wtfish. so ya then i think she about to pass out, called her mum to fetch home.
omg i was like so concerned bout her in the dream, i could almost slap myself.
but i can't stop thinking bout it
so anyway, i found out from my cousin that she works in Dorothy Perkins, Bugis outlet.
so if i find her, i get to use her staff discount 30 % off! and she has the vouchers and all. hahah
almost 50% okay! hurrayyy
ah they are here
off to lunch and tv!

hello dyed hairs!

2007-10-14T18:14:00.001+08:00

BUGIS & BEACH

topshop cardigan

2007-10-12T11:57:00.000+08:00

omg yesterday was the bomb. Clique went to bugis, shopped and shopped.
Bought earrings and more. It was rather funny with every event but i wanted to find shorts uh.
maybe when i save up again
and i totaly wanna get that red cardigan from topshop.
SUPER NICE 73 bucks. savvvinnnnggggg
hahah plusplus, HARI RAYA COMING which means incoming cash flow.
OH YEAH! red cardigan, you're mine baby. mine
and so many other things i needa get.
grey skinnies, probably a yellow top and i want more pumps uh.
planning to go Batam after raya soon.
After a whole day of walking around and camwhoring,
we ended off with Starbucks!
HORRRAYYY life is a movie.
so, we went to TP to meet Ankita's dad to fetch us to EP.
Walked around to see some things.
we're planning for tmr's beach bash.
Vanisha's giving us a treat to dinner
oh hell SUNSET WITH THE CLIQUE!

my smiles may show like nothing's wrong and everything's fine

but no one knows how the image of our outing we had re-appeared

and it killed me each time i hear your voice in my head.

i need timeout, exam's are over

goodbye sec 3, hello stress.

2007-10-09T22:35:00.001+08:00

RESCUE MISSION 101
DATE: 8th OCTOBER 2007
LOCATION: outside sac [:

meow{:

it was raining and then a group of girls, Kim, Sharmain and a few others few and saw the cat in the drain. it was being dragged by the heavy current in the huge canal.
Fortunately for this strong crossbreed, it got hold on an algae-ed rock on the side on the canal. it was clinging on helplessly fighting the strong currents.

Feeling so lost not knowing what i can do with my own powers, i decided to voice out and asked to call civil defence. Shakeela: " Hello sir, i'm wondering if there's anyone that can do anything bout a cat that's stuck in a heavy current canal, please?"
He gave the hotline to the SPCA. Directing their fastest service down, i gave the address specifically in front of block 95, Bedok North Ave 4.

We waited and waited but i got impatient and went to where the poor feline was, myself. Elly, Nadiya & I squeezed in an umbrella being 3/4ly drenched. i was calling out to the cat, hold on hold on. i prayed so hard. prayed that the rain would stop.

Jamin and the rest called Ms Pony. Eventually, the rain stopped. My pray was answered i thought but it was on/off. I sheltered the cat with the huge umbrella Ms Pony brought. Our uniforms were stained by the barriers, drenched and cold.
Half an hour passed and no sign on that blue vehicle. We decided to do our best before it was too late.Pails, Nets,Baskets. No results.

An hour had gone by but the cat did not budge. I realised that if we call out to the cat, it would look up. Those eyes full of fear and shivering body. I wanted to cry so much, being such a cat lover. But i waited and kept calling to it to hang on because we're not giving up on it. I even said i would give it fish! [:

This mysterious man in boots, jacket and a hat, as though prepared to do such a stunt, came from across and asked in Malay, " will the cat bite? does the cat bite?" I thought to myself, we wouldn't know Pakcik.
But i said it wouldn't knowing that it is tired and scared, it would have been too weak to fight back.
He disappeared. SPCA, i thought you cared so much but you were so late!
Anyway, we got baskets ready in case the poor kitty let go. We were determined enough to save it. Suddenly, Mr Mysterious Man was in the canal and he was like poking the kitty into the basket. i was shouting in malay " Pakcik, you don't have to be scared just carry it. it's scared. don't worry"
Apparently he was stubborn but he helped, MAJORLY, by getting the cat in the basket.
We lifted the basket up and poooooooooor kitty gave a HUGE meow sigh.

How's the land like, kitty? It's limbs were weak and it was freezing. I ran for a blanket to cover it up but i saw the vehicle coming along so i signalled it to the incident. There, the guy gave us a cage to carry the rescued victim.

It was heavy, the cage. Relatively large and too heavy for a cage so he gave us a new cage. Ms Pony had brought him to the vet yesterday and would be under observation in the meantime while recovering. Will update about the recovery of this strong fighter [:
Hurray to us,Ms Pony and the auntie from the lab and last but not least, Ms Mysterious Man

Lesson learnt for kitty; Don't stray near canals.

smile smile happy smile

2007-10-04T18:27:00.000+08:00

this morning during my History paper, i looked at my finger and saw an eyelash.
i made a wish and blew it away.

after the paper, i left for home. we planned to go EP's burger king but it was cancelled last minute. ugh. then okay edit pics and all.
i fell asleep at about 3.30 from the lack of sleep i've been having.

then i woke up at 6 and i found myself going to my blogsite.
my wish came true.

my eyes scanned the tag, and i smiled so widely to myself.
i was so happy & yet so amazed that it can take one person to make you smile that much.

No, my wish wasn't for him to tag but for someone to cheer me up.
& well, he did [:

Thank you Dasmond, so very much. I'm so grateful that you still remember me.
I hope to meet you soon once again. Take care and yes, eat more. haha

About the paper today, I prepare myself to fail moderately or pass at the mark, it's pretty much expected but i certainly hope that social studies would pull it up.
GO NOTHERN IRELAND! everyone was being all 'Hitler' and 'Stalin' this morning and the word ' APPEASEMENT' gets to me alot. but soon tomorrow it would be 'tangent' or 'cosine rule is 'a^2 = b^2+c^2 - 2bc cos A' and more.

second meet when i passed him the picture of us and the note behind it.credits to aurelia for the pic.

eh my god, people try not to tag often. i wanna see Dasmond's tag so that i will smile everytime i come here. haha

ending off, 2 more days and it's Naqibah's birthday so
i don't wanna ignore that and say all the best to her[:
how nice i am, yay. raye coming!

exams in hall

2007-10-02T15:01:00.000+08:00

quick update on exams so far;

had english papers yesterday. it was alright, i must say.
i just hope i score and for malay today,
i was confident bout the peribahasa and close passages.
yeah, having exam in the hall is much better than in the classroom but seriously, teachers need to walk barefooted in the hall.
their clanky high heels would kill the concentration once they walk past.
not only the female teachers, BUT THE MALE ONE TOO.
aiyo, terrible i must add on.
although i very much hate looking around in the hall
because of distractions, i can't help it.
but still, i'm gna get over it.
that's for sure.
i know you are happy she sat at your seat. good for you.
all the best and hope she loves you back [:

i will take my leave.

2007-09-28T18:19:00.000+08:00

i'll take it in my stride. i'll not let you see me cry
i'll get on like normal or at least, i'll try.
I'm not gonna let you see me tear
I'll never let you become my fear

Cos Love is one of it and you'll be erased from my dictionary, Love.

There's a gap between us and I'm sure you know.
I've been hurting all along but I try not to let it show.
I don't wanna approach anything that has gotta do with you.
But for sure, my heart's wounded and it's because of you.

I hate you for the lie and the hopes you made me build.
I hate you too much but i'll be living with a guilt.
Guilty that i loved you, guilty that i cared.
Guilty for all the things we have ever shared.

I don't wanna continue nor do i wanna repeat
I don't even wanna see you anymore, you left me incomplete
Thanks so much for hurting me, Thanks so much for this fucking pain.
Thanks so much for ensuring that I'll never be able to love again.

so bring in the penknives;
apathy for love.
apathy for you.
apathy for life
fuck.

FUCK

2007-09-28T17:09:00.000+08:00

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you

had i known things would turn out like this, i wouldn't have even bothered to such a fuck thing.
to think that it had to be right before exams.
i can't take it anymore. too much things in my mind, too much going on and too much pain.
~~i hate you so much, seriously. i do.~~

rascal flatts.

2007-09-25T19:52:00.000+08:00

that's not what gets me
this morning, Nadiya, Dinah, Shauna & I had trouble finding Ckgu E. urgh i got pretty pissed luh.
i saw that girl again. -.-'
anyway, had pe chem and math.
i was super zoinked out during chem and math. no idea why.
and i brought pineapple tarts from home for Joey!
HEHE, she loved it. yay.
joeyjoey, cheer up alright. stay strong.

recess; erm normal? bleak?

accounts; boy, one fail for the record. one stupid fail. just because of provision for doubtful debts.
i totally got it all wrong. so Geraldine & I decided to have a lil extra lesson tmr after school.
you'll be seeing me there for some time.
I would have physics after that. HAHA.
then go to dikir practice. i will probably see that girl again -.-'
lovl, E better teach us the rebana else i'm out man.

after school, cabbed to tampines Starbucks with Krys to study.
i managed to do accounts. i think i kinda got the concept of doubtful debts but i'll just leave the explaination tmr to Mdm Kee.
took 38 home.

Shawn took the same bus as well. haha i was about to go to the door then he smiled and waved.
aha, recognised me and said hey. so i said hello. apparently he bought present for his friend, that's what he told me. LOL
cute fella. then parted our ways at the bus stop.

So decided to blog before tuition. seriously this week, i have tuition EVERYDAY. yes, and monday onwards i can only limit my time online to only an hour and a half.
will someone be a sweetie to motivate me with messages in case i'm watching tv or something?=X

because the scars on my wrist reveals the past.

ooh, lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

2007-09-24T23:11:00.000+08:00

DO YOU?

Maybe this decision was a mistake

You probably don't care what I have to say

But it's been heavy on my mind for months now

Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space

I would love to talk to you in person

But I understand why that can't be

I'll leave you alone for good, I promise

If you answer this one question for me

I just wonder

Do you ever

Think of me

Anymore

Do you?

---------------------

That song was by Neyo, titled Do you.

yeah okay, exactly a week before the first paper starts.

Exams are in the hall this time. I'm stressed out bout the fact that

I'VE YET TO TOUCH MY HUMANITIES AND SCIENCES.

okay so i just ended my tuition and updating my blog.

i had the mood to blog because of a song. haha

that heart-wrenching song by N'sync.

oh you know what, i have 25+ songs about a person, ridiculous but true.

I was chatting with ZJ! haha he's like finding for songs online. mmm

comforting poor Joey, Bobby! don't sad alreadyyyyyy

i bring something for you tmr okay, to cheer you up.

She's so cute luh. aiyoo.

Anyway, planning to go Jalan Raya this year but i've yet to even get my raya outfit.

no time, NO TIME, NO TIMEEEEE

i got another butterfly from mysecret again!

i miss you.

in every sense.

i miss your voice.

the way you sang.

i miss your eyes.

the way you look.

i miss your msges.

how long it took.

i miss that day.

the one you said

i miss you.

and i said i did too.

answer me, do you?

2007-09-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

i was such a fool, i couldn't see it

i know i haven't been updating my blog recently. it's either no time or no mood.
so i'll be updating bout my past week.
last friday, it was
ANTHEA'S BIRTHDAY!
went to cs to take neos. then she went off to orchard.
the rest of us watche Ratatouille. isthathowyouspellit?
i skipped drum lesson on saturday again.
no motivation?

sunday morning was alright. madrasah. i missed Eva^^
had tuition then cabbed to becok cc to accompany my sis for the rehearsal concert karaoke thing.
stupidly, she told them i was able to sing. in chinese as well.
jammed for hours. good music, i must say. very.
cabbed home all tired

and then came Monday.
breezy and fast but lethargic.
nothing much. Today was death-enating.
i didn't sahur in the morning so i had to bare the hunger.halfday
had the dikir practice today. it was quite alright.
we managed to get the verse and practiced it alot of times.
the tune is so cute luh.
you guys have to wait till 19oct then.
after that, we went to EP, went to challenger to check a few things out.
i wanna get the W660i. my phone is currenty having a few screw loose.
it sends out 2 messages when i send one only. curse you stupid phone.
but it's okay. i get my phone i want anyway.

spent more time at Pet Safari. i was thinking bout Joey Poon's group project just now.
i seriously wanna murder the guy who did that to the kitty.
F u, bastard. Let me know how you feel when i do that to you once you're outta jail.
UGH.

i cant even stay for long at your blog because of the song.
sigh- angel by my side, will you please tell me what's my next move?
i'm clueless. What do i do now that she's gone in her own direction?
i mean, i'm happy if she's finding her own path but..
i feel so alone.
she used to be there when i needed someone.
she used to be the company i had
she used to play a huge part of my life at a point of time
and now i'm left hanging lifeless and scared.
what am i supposed to be?
will i be okay?
will she?
move on if that's where you find your happiness.
iloveyou.

2007-09-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

my mind is gone

i'm spinning round

and deep inside, my tears i'll drown

i'm losing grip

whats happening?

i stray from love

this is how i feel:

this time was different

felt like i was just a victim

and it cut me like a knife

when you walked out of my life

now i'm in this condition

and i got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart

but no matter what you'll never see me cry.

i'm so stressed up. it was back to school yesterday.

i felt like death this morning. i couldn't keep up in time.

didn't bring chem file, didn't read up my accounts during holidays,

didn't get much sleep either, didn't have a good morning

even Ankita tried to cheer me up.

thanks. i need a break from everything.

it's REALLYREALLY going too fast. suddenly everthing's flashing.

tmr's wednesday. thursday is the start of fasting month

oh God, help me, please!

currently i'm trying to take things easy. today went to bk and studied.

tmr, i think i've gotta end up going home and do my ss project with Nad. like fuck sia

i need time for myself as well. i'm sufferring from a damn headache and i still gotta go for tuition tonight. and it's not like twice a week or something.

it's a darn four times a week because that toot insist that i have four times a week and then my math tuition is once a week. that's not too bad but taking a look at my fucking schedule ;

it's FIVE times a week of tuition.

FUCKING HELL.

seriously, i'm about to breakdown soon. if i can't keep up with time for just EOYs, how's Os gna be like? urgh. today's busride got me so emo. i was listening to Ben's album song.

i forgot it's title and it's playing on my iTunes now. I appreciated that 20 mins busride because it was the only time my head could relax.

i need p-a-n-a-d-o-l.

everything's such a crapshit for me now.

i want Mr Sandman to stop time NOWWWWWWWWWWW.

NOW

urgh. here's the lyrics of the song i'm listening to sang by Ben Hum;

by the way this was one of the songs he sang at karaoke at the party on friday.

shecalledmethatnight

Wu yun zai wo men xin li ge xia yi kuai yin ying

Wo ling ting chen ji yi jiu de xin qing

Qing xi tou ming

Jiu xiang mei li de feng jing

Zong zai hui yi li cai kan de qing

Bei shang tou de xin neng bu neng gou ji xu ai wo

Wo yong li qian qi mei wen du de shuang shou

Guo wang wen rou yi jing bei shi jian shang suo

Zhi sheng hui san bu qu de nan guo

Huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian

Wo dian ran zhu huo wen nuan sui mo de qiu tian

Ji guang lue duo tian bian

Bei feng lue guo xiang ni de rong yan

Wo ba ai shao cheng le luo ye

Que huan bu hui shu xi de na zhang lian

Huan huan piao luo de feng ye xiang si nian

Wei he huan hui yao gan zai dong tian lai zhi qian

Ai ni chuan yue shi jian

Liang hang lai zi qiu mo de yan lei

Rang ai shen tou le di mian

Wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian

givemeabreak,love.

2007-09-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

i will blog bout last night later on.
when i woke up this morning, i had a song in my head.
i never saw it's music video nor do i have it downloaded in my com or ipod.
i was trying hard to figure out what song it was
but only one line of the song was in my head the whole time

" what hurts the most, was being so close..."

so i decided to google it and found it's lyrics.
little did i know that the whole song related to how i feel.
the song is What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts.
i have no idea how that song ended up in my mind
but right now, i guess it explains everything.

-----------

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother m
eI can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the mostIs being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

read the lyrics cos it's meant for you.

2007-09-07T13:25:00.000+08:00

i would have stayed up with you all night

had i known how to save a life.

why hello everyone. i haven't exactly got anything much to blog about today.

cept that i received a message from someone a few minutes ago.

i pray to God He hears you

haha let me tell you facts bout me:D

I get very cranky when I'm asleep and someone turns the aircon or fan off.

I would automatically be awake if the light is turned on. I sleep with manymany pillows.

I sleep with my handphone under my pillow so that i can hear my alarm.

I think i'm a deepsleeper. [?] I usually fall asleep listening to the radio after 2.

I write in my diary in the night before i tuck in. I think about prison break sometimes.

For this whole one week holiday, everymorning i get up, the first thing i do is on the computer.

everyday i come back from school, i do that too.

it's probably my LIFE. I can stand coldness but not when it heats.

I like to think alot. ALOT. I think AJ[esplanadeboy]'s hot.

I long for Fried Mars Bars.If someone takes me there soon, i'll love you.

A typical day at home would be on the com till dinner.

A typical day after school would be lunch and slack.

A typical study day would be books,music,talk and food.

I seem pretty RANDOM sometimes. I get spasms. I camwhore with my clique alot.

with Ankita & Anthea especially.

I listen to chinese songs & i enjoy it very much. Weird but yeah.

I started listening to chinese songs with primary school.

Believe me, I have more chinese songs than malay songs in my ipod.

My family watches chinese shows, but i guess i'm the only one who is interested in more of it.

JJ Lin's a darn good singer. I listen to bfmv, underoath, caracal,HIM,TBS,MCR,FOB,Kelly,Rihanna,Avril etc.

Local music like JJ, Taufik, Hady, Ronin,Electrico etc are good.

Singapore's tiny but we're very successful, agree?

I like watching shows regarding high school, for some reason.

Grey's Anatomy is an exception. I wanna get my ride pimped in the future.

Sydney's a lovely place to get a holiday but I prefer Rome.

I don't actually watch live the dream anymore. No reason why.

I find the colour, electric blue veryvery attractive.

I finally got a top with that colour. TG.

I like cardigans. I like to see people who wears cardigans.

It's an eyecatching item for me.

White & purple skinnies are becoming the in thing.

I'm looking forward to the party tonight.

Because.... []

haha, no more ciggs this time. i can't afford to

especially when....[]

I like the rain. I LOVE the rain.No reason why. I just do.

I wish i had superpowers to be a mindreader and to be invinsible :D

I forgot the pledge once.

I think everyone stops moving their mouth to the anthem in sec one.

I have tuition at 3.45 to 5.15. I hope Dad'll still allow me to go for the party.

He told me last night that we're going to the expo sale so i shouldn't go for the party and that it should be after the exams. like, aren't i going out as well if i go expo?

so umm why not just let me go for the party while you guys go shop?

I don't mind especially when....[]

HAHA the whole issue of the [] is a suspense cos i don't wanna reveal anythig yet.

only a handful of people know bout it !

i rarely use the exclaimation mark unless i get very excited.

currently, marcis told me that people think i have a girlfriend.

erm i don't. (:

if you're gonna ask me if i like someone, i think you shouldn't hope too much if you think i'm gonna tell you anything bout it.

unless you are .. HAHA

I'm basically typing this out of being random.

I felt happy when my dad shut up during my midyears results.

i hope nothing goes wrong till exams and that it would be pleasing to him.

I want a new webcam & Mom's getting me a new hp.

all thanks to the damn one which she drowned in the waching machine, literally.

I find my niece and nephew focking irritating.

their cute & all but getting on my nerves.

I think my brother should find his house soon else i'll explode.

am i wrong to say that time is going too fast?

the year is gonna end and soon it'll be the big Os.

then i'll move on to college or poly and work.

do i go to work or continue the Us?

if i wish to continue, i'd prefer overseas.

okay this is a hellload of words.

no one would read. HAHA pure joy pure joy.

ai de zhu xuan lu

2007-09-05T19:00:00.000+08:00

sings-

:D
this morning, woke up at 9 to get ready for Lit at 10.
cabbed and fetched Nad on the way.
lit was alright. [: ~~isawher!~~

lunched with Nad at our old fav.

talked till 1+ and walked back to school.

waited for the bus to come and got home by 2.

thereafter, watched To Kill a Mockingbird movie again.

haha it doesn't get any better than the "SHE KISSED ME" scene.

uber hilarious, i tell you.

anyway tmr, there's another lesson with Ms Yeo and Ms Saleha.

this time i have to be in school at 8.30

GAHHHH, have to wake up so early.

i'm gonna go Bedok Inter now to shopppp

haha reward myself a lil cos i've studied almost about 4hours today.

yay me [:

*you said that by putting love down, we would be able to go further
perhaps it was fate that let us meet,

Mayvelle, I've got a secret too & you'll never know :D

2007-09-03T12:42:00.000+08:00

wo ke yi
pei ni qu kan xing xing
bu yong zai shuo ming
wo jiu yao he ni zai yi qi
wo bu xiang you zai yi ci he ni fen li

雨下得好安静 [the rain is so silent]

but no one hears the cries inside

2007-09-01T13:26:00.000+08:00

the family i have<3
oh uber much fun did i have yesterday.
okay so i didn't reaaally get high during aces.
it was AFTER that in the hall. HAHA.
wonderful joy. i was shouting like a mad mama in the middle of nowhere.
duh, surrounded by people like angela mah baby, pei qi, nadiya, krystal, elly, michelle, jacinta, yolanda, calesta and others. it was for sure my spasm got to me.
the event was good.
angklung band and percussion were fucking awesome. like seriously.
pauline so cute somemore.
indian dancers, Ankita was soooooo cuteeee & Vanisha just kept smiling and smiling.
boy was i happy! haha

4.6 did an item which totally got me tickling my funny bone.
best, the teacher's dance. it was to We're all in this together by HSM.
like okayyyyy i thought it would turn out cheesy but then Mrs A brought it to a whole new level
and whoa was she HOT!
Mr Ng, wah i tell you ah this guy.
there's a part where the leg goes front and the hand goes to the head and the head tilts back
he tilt his head like his neck broke backwards or sth.
funny sia. mmm then waited for Van and Ankita. and off we went to 14 to Anthea's place

we changed out to go swim, ordered out 241 pizzas as well. SHIOOOOKKK
HAHA this was how Anthea's party was suppose to turn out last year. well!
camwhored and went back to Anthea's crib. Ankita was totally in love with Rusty.
She kept playin with him. cute fella.
we then cabbed home before 4.30.

damn today must be a saturday.
i'm starting to be very lazy to go for drum classes.
since Tash has stopped, and like lethargic feelings for it.
HAHA i may be stopping soon too.
gahhhhh hope to go for Krys bbq tmr night.

PARTY LIKE A ROCK, PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR
PARTY LIKE A ROCK, PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR

to -, my everything, my best friend, someone i lost;

be it good or not,
you'll remain in my past as of now.

cry - rihanna

2007-08-30T22:34:00.000+08:00

to *; i try so hard to ignore but deep inside, i know i still care.

i'm not gonna mention anything bout what happened after school.

because i feel that it is not right and that it was a personal issue. so i'll just blog about other stuff.

rehab & cry are current favs. oh crap, exams are flying in my face in about a month's time.

its as though time can't past fast enough. 13th september is the start of Fasting month.

all the way THROUGH exams. which means that i will be fasting during exam as well.

wth. torture! haha i will have to eat the delicious lunches and tresure them before i fast then.

it's Aces day tmr, a half day. traditional SAC that is. aces song this year is PCD's wait a minute.

like uhhuh, i think i'd get high every Aces. it ALWAYS seem that way. then after that we're gonna go over to Anthea's. been veryvery long since we were last there spending time together.

CLIQUE! haha we're gonna go for a dive-in-clothes (?) swim and watch movie. such a cosy thought!

ooh i feel like bringing popcorn! HAHA the marshmallow one. jealous much ?

about *, aiya. i, myself, not even sure. you know, i asked her if she does like #, but then she said no.

then what can i do right? now alot of people telling me say * like # then like erm okay. don't come and tell me la. tell me also, what you want me to say or react ? (sigh) no comment. gave up on #, giving up on * as well ??

maybe. yeah i should. leave everything alone. i should be abit MIA nowadays too.

haha good idea.hmmm realise my post consist of more words and not plain chunks of paragraphs ?

so well, seriously, now i see her, it's like i tell myself ' just shut up and yknow, go do your things'

but like the other side of me is like all ' ( SSIIIIIIGGGGGGHHHH) '

nothing i can change if she really likes #. haha, be happy for her i guess (?)

the retard will be here tmr just to conver up what's not to be seen on the outside

minah tudung

2007-08-29T19:00:00.000+08:00

Joni.Monkyo.Keela

Geraldine See!Teri.Zijie!

wish come true[:

sometimes, unexpected people do the dreadest unexpecting things.
thanks for making me realise

are you my friend, or just in disguise?

2007-08-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

stupid shakeela.
let me tell you bout her stupidity.
she got herself sick by getting flu, fever and cough from her niece.
then she drinks coke and eats ice cream to worsen her throat.
just so she can get herself an mc for wednesday
but noooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she has to consider that if she calls in sick for tutorial and
goes to the doctor,
then daddy won't let her go for Finals, right!
so sadly, shakeela and her sick-self had to suffer at home.
TOOBADSHAKEELATOOBAD.YOUCAN'TTHANKMEENOUGHFORBLOGGINGFORYOU

WITHOUTYOURKNOWLEDGE.HWAHWAHWA!

WITH LOVE,
ISA, YOURNEIGHBOUR.

it's a secret

2007-08-22T18:09:00.000+08:00

finally, the top 10 best of Campus Superstar CD the poster in it.

taken from SECRET.

RESEMBLANCE MUCH!

HELLOOOO! haha okay so far, the days have past quite fast.

amazing but true. didn't go for ttrl today.

mm ooh watched Secret at TM.

omg, the show damndamndamndamn nice.

so touching somemore.

ahahaa, ~~apples. you didnt even know!~~

Jay looked quite hot luh, must admit.

haha but i was OBVIOUS reminded of.

OOHHHH [: !

yeah then went to Popular to get the top 10 cd

rahhhhh! ZJ sing sosososos nice.

hehe, and yeah the rest of them too.

pretty good album, i'd say worth it luh.

cherish the memories;

let me tell you a secret,

i....

2007-08-20T18:21:00.000+08:00

at Teri's party.

night life & ciggs make me high.

love, did i tell you sth i shouldn't say?

August 20th, 2007

today's horoscope reading according to friendster;

the inspiration and energy you've been waiting for will hit

you square in the face, first thing in the morning. hop on this

righteous wave of productivity and ride it all it's worth! it

probably won't last all day long.

other people will get a kick out of your new and improved attitude

and you could gain some support from former foes.

intellectual ideas aren't going to appeal to you much today.

it;' all about action and adventure.

move with big gestures, and laugh the loudest!

HAHAHA. this is so true. considering how high i got from aces dance practice.

this piece of "futuretelling" is rather true.

HHA i never bothered bout classes today. i kinda made fun out of everything i heard today.

weirdddddd. it's been some time since i felt such rush of overjoyness.

friends? yeah. i guess so.

after school, went to macs for lunch with elly and krys. what a DEJAVU!

haha, met anthea aurelia meryl and kendra there too.

kendra GREW okay. i just remained. urgh. haha

took a 9 with krys and dropped off at CGH.

- got through her 2nd scope. it's scary.

there were two policemen with a cuffed patient there too.

he looked foreign to me, but well he was an inmate testing for drugs.

mm cabbed home and well, hha i heard this lady in green shouting. so i looked down

and saw her screaming at a metta kid.

like woman, he's a lil off, so just chill.

maybe she's his mom. genetic?

HAHA okay well, i'm so worried for my kitty.

she's got sth going on. urg, Vet soon okay, Kitty? ]:

the talk today during assembly was about pet responsibility.

it made me realise how much i miss my cats. i haven't been playing with it for so long.

their either sleeping or i'm here typing my life away.

so i must make MORE time for both of them[:

i'm back to my singing-self again.

why? i don't know.

it's not happy songs i'm singing anyway. that explains it.

yeah, so jiwang. haha

everytime it rains, i always think of you. really!

i have no idea why.

was it cos i told you how much i wanted it to rain all the time?

tell me something i wanna hear[:

rehab lyrics

2007-08-15T18:38:00.000+08:00

Baby baby

When we first met I never felt something so strong

You were like my lover and my best friend

All wrapped in one with a ribbon on it

And all of a sudden you went and left

I didn't know how to follow

It's like a shock that spun me around

And now my heart's dead

I feel so empty and hollow

And I'll never give myself to another the way I gave it to you

You don't even recognize the ways you hurt me, do you?

It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back

And you're the one to blame

And now I feel like....oh!

You're the reason why I'm thinking

I don't wanna smoke on these cigarettes no more

I guess that's what I get for wishful thinking

Should've never let you enter my door

Next time you wanna go on and leave

I should just let you go on and do it

'Cause now I'm using like I bleed

It's like I checked into rehab

And baby, you're my disease

It's like I checked into rehab

And baby, you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby you're my disease

I gotta check into rehab

'Cause baby you're my disease

Damn, ain't it crazy when you're loveswept

You'd do anything for the one you love

'Cause anytime that you needed me

I'd be there

It's like you were my favorite drug

The only problem is that you was using me

In a different way than I was using you

But now that I know it's not meant to be

I gotta go, I gotta wean myself off of you

i dont wanna put my hopes up too high any longer

2007-08-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

hello[:
okay so i guess days have gone back from last week.
pretty fast. Friday, i felt so lost for words after that conversation.
Hmm nowadays, very boring.
Got back progress card on Mon
i was rather satisfied except for Lit. a pity.
sigh- I don't know what to do bout Parents.
-'s gotta go for scope soon & i'm worried though i don't show it.-'s been talking bout i-don't-wanna-say-it-out-at-all.
hate it hate it. stressed out as to what i'm supposed to do.
let them not worry bout me (?) i somehow always seem the villain in -'s eyes.
i cannot be bothered to argue back at all.
my studies are for myself, i know what i wanna do with it. can you for once just praise me a lil for my hard effort and not BOLD my bad marks. HELL YEAH i know their bad so just shut up.
it's not as though i scored all As before but, your remarks are too much.
you don't see me study, it doesn't mean i don't.

ohh well, no more stressing or else the stick issue will come up.
i have to change my blog link fast, a family member knows bout it alrd.

i received her msg[:
oohhee okay at least i smiled genuinely after more than a week.

movie ';' ?
MOVIE ANYONE? :D

2007-08-10T13:15:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY
sports day, ended at 1
off to orchard.
nothing much to say
so ill leave it without words.

]

Buried by Love - HIM

To cry is to know that you're alive

But my river of tears has run dry

I never wanted to fool you, no

But a cold heart is a dead heart

And it feels like I've been buried alive by love

If I should die before I wake

Pray no one my soul to take

If I wake before I die,

Rescue me with your smile

If I should die before I wake

There ain't no one my soul to take

If I wake before I die,

Rescue me with your smile

2007-08-06T21:26:00.000+08:00

i don't fucking understand this shit anymore la.
i'm so stressed up. you clearly know how i feel.
CLEARLY. but it seems as though you don't care anymore.
you can't even give me an answer.
stop giving me false hope already la. it's not fun.
you know how much i cry every night, thinking how you are.
you no longer tell me your problems,
i feel like as though you shut me out of your world
i no longer receive your msges any more. how the fuck am i suppose to feel?
all this while, have what you have been saying lies?
sometimes, i feel as if you ignore me and pretend like i never existed.
i dont understand anything
when i hear that you hurt yourself, have you ever considered how hurt i felt?
now when i read your blog, you're somehow doing something,
i wont say its a crime cos i have no right to say it
but hearing that you do this kind of things makes me so upset.
i barely even feel that you trust me already.
or did you in the first place?
your eyes meet mine but we're total strangers.
i see you looking , i dont wanna cause my hurt to sting so badly
so i look away to ignore the fact that you never cared.
i'm clueless..things are different and i cant deny it.
this whole thing's changing me into such a different person.
like who i used to be in sec 2 but worse.
it sucks ok.
FUCK. i hate me for loving you.
but i hate you for making me love you.
i love you.

you know sth, just forget it.
forget everything.
cos i think even if sth happened to me,
it doesn't concern you at all.
URGH.

setiap ada kamu

2007-08-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

PETE WENTZ IS STILL AS HOT AS EVER

im bored so im just adding on to yesterday's post bout what happened in the morning

haha Shawn Tok recognised me.

cute la he. i was waiting for bus and he was walking past me,

then i look at him and he smiles

so i smiled, then i went, eh you recognise me?"

and he nodded and said "Hello.."

haha so i went " haha hey.."

cute la cos he had the morning voice. LOL

so yeahhh

urggghhh

went to jam just now, my leg damn pain la

can literally feel the muscles cramp.

going outto dxotonighhhhtttttttt!

IRWAN ROCKS SIAAAA. thanksthanks.

kong qiu qian

2007-08-03T22:48:00.000+08:00

these few days, things seem to past very fast since monday.

no idea why but it's getting to my head

had so many tests and graded assignments

sometimes i feel like squeezing the brains out of the chers

it's frustrating la kayyyyy

so like on wednesday, i think i went to bedok macs for lunch (?)

yeah thursday, i stayed back with N to study abit and bond more.

haha, we borrowed this book frm the library about dream interpretations.

mm, returned Mayvelle money from my PL! haha

that girl ah, i wanna see her hand right, she don't wanna show.

what does that mean?

means still there right..wanna show from far, but still got the scar.

WTH! sha gua.

tsk, anyway then cabbed home at 6.30, tuition.

today, went opp sch with krys rash and rach.

bought macs and took 9 to Krys house to watch movie

haha we found a GAY movie to watch, so super sick la

everything was exposed, i almost vomited my mcspicy.

HAHA

then cabbed home and tuitioned again.

WL, now tuition is like 4 times a week. plus this is not even preparing for O level yet

i think next year, everyday also tuition la.

TSSSSSSSSSSSSSSKKKKKK.

';'

aku hanya ingin mencintaimu

adakah itu begitu susah?

berikanlah aku peluang ini, sayangku.

the endless road without a stop sign-

can i ask u ?

2007-07-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

like okay, ignore the previous post...
HAHA oh well, monday is a good day.
no math, no lopez, no pe, no stress.
monday is sucha relaxing day(:
motivation for the rest of the week, i guess?
stupid luhh, yesterday i was walking home with irwan
RUSHHHHHING for ugly betty know,
PIAK! slip and fall on my knee on the concrete.
pain like siuoahgilbgkjdvb!

i hope i can be excused from PE tmr. super pain
plus today after TM, walked to talk cab and was RUSHHHing again
duh, kena my knee again.
haha today i blog like some singlish-like-hell person.
dont care laaaa
ahhh i'm quite happy.
Zijie sang the song for the show that i like
i forgot the show but the song is called 主题曲
veh nice he sing(:

anywayyy, i can't get too carried away.
i keep talking and talking bout zj, i think i will just faint
school home to my mum even, omg shut up shakeela.
OKAY

errrr ((: was walking down to go off then saw her.
my god, my heart almost dropped cos first person i saw was her
panic? smiled but then my face went hot
so errr. hhaha x)
took a second turn back and left schhoooll

girl, be mine! xD

sigh-

2007-07-27T19:49:00.000+08:00

you know what..
sometimes i feel as though i've got so many problems thats pulling me down
that i hardly realise the hardest impact is the one i'm facing with you.
after one problems settled before letting out a sigh of relief, the thought of you comes to my mind yet again.
but i never told anyone about this. i dont know why but i just bottle this to myself.
and that sense of hurt seems to grow everyday.
it's undeniable but i have to hide it somehow. it's always on and off, this hurt.
it's always on the back of my mind.
when it seems like i meant something to you, my feelings grow so much
but yet sometimes, its as though you never really bothered?
or maybe its just me and my insecurity. sometimes i even feel as though there's someone else in your heart.
are you just playing me on? please don't.
i mean its just really the insecurity i feel. it even goes to the extent that i feel so cheated.
i hope i'm wrong.
i doubt you are aware of how i truly feel bout you. duh, it's more than you think it is lah.
what you think i feel, i guess its like 20 times more (?)
bet you didn't even know, i've grown seriously attached.
i have no idea why but sometimes i feel as though i dont even come across your mind
do i? tell me i do.
i can't show how i feel neither can i VOICE it out so what else, but my blog.
no one knows who i'm talking bout but you, you alone.
why did you even think i asked the question i asked that night?
about if your feelings are still there?
cos i barely feel what you do, baby
honestly, i don't really know what you want
but i love you alot and i dare to say that cos i mean it to the very core.

bloggie

2007-07-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

nothing much to say but the pics are from the carpark then to the roadshow.

ugh, stupid life. stupid fights.

strike me with lightning la!

lalalalaa

2007-07-22T20:33:00.000+08:00

Whoa kay ive got too much to blog, so i'll skip and get to the interesting parts((:

MONDAYYYYYYYYY[16 july 07]

ah this day, went for CSS2 yesyesyesyes. happy happy

okay normal, camwhored before going to the carpark.

okay, so then i got bored and went down.

SAC was first in lineeeeeeeeeee thanks to yourstrulyyy(:

then duh, camwhore again.

okay skipskipskip

waited for like and hour and yay, we're going innnnnn.

so yah waited waited. omg then Dasmond came out and whoa

he looked up and WAVVVEEEDD

okay, at me. xD

haha so paisehhhhh.

im was so contented that he rmbed me!

teri after performance before results.

right then blahblah congratted shawn and fukuan.

the whole thing was so funny

dasmond kept smiling, so sweet luh he(:

k so after the show, he came to us cos i told him i got something for him

then like, yay i gave him the laminated thing with the note and

he auto-ed for me my copy and the laminated pic.

so YUUUUPP, hehe and yes yuki, he knows i' loooooveee' him:D

yayyyyy okay.

i saw him drive out that night too. hahahaha funny i recognised his car.

okay thennn...

hmm YESTERDAY;

SATURDAY [21 july 07]

omygahhhh(:

k after the community quiz and fengshan,

went to EP to see the css2 roadshow.

ankita, ya ting, teri and ting wen joined us as well.

then when they were coming out,

many were like screaming. lol

was talking to shawn & took a pic of him

omg best part, zijie and me, eye contact

& he SMILLLLEEEEDDDD

rahhhhh

okay that part i went mad onwards(:

so uhhuh they were like playing and all.

then took so many pics of zj when he going up and down the stage.

it was hilarious

cos one part, Zijie was right in front of me

and ya ting CLEVERLY said out loud,

"EH I GOT YOUR ZI JIE PIC"

and zijie turned to look

WHOOOOAAA i went blank and red!

oh and took pic with Pornsak as well.

haha yay he said he rmbed me too

then he did this action which was so called imitating me screaming.

omg i was laughing like hell.

kay then they were about to leave, they walk past and yay

only we people managed to go basement and catch them

cos the rest went either pet safari or dno where

hahaha, then yup went to the bus,

i kept waving at all of them

esp, zijie la

haha

and shawn was like laughing. wth.

haha then, went to zijie's window and talk awhile

took picssssss

of zijie, guohao shawn ben i think and more.

it was so fun la

then i think keely joanna huixian marcus and shawn went toilet

and security was asking us to go ready

so i took my finalll wave to zijie. hahaha!

we follow them towards toilet.

note: towards, not in.

waited, then took pic with shawn. he so short and cute.

i felt tall for once!:D

then yup the rest, no time so they had to go

so we said goodbye

and leeeeffttt

haha i headed for bugis then got home

happy happy me till i dreamt bout it!

TODAY

sunday [ 22nd july 07 ]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIYA!

yay this morning went to whitesands for awhile

later at 3.30, met ankita to cab to church to get nadiya

went for cikgu's wedding and WOW cikgu looked so pretty and lovely.

she was like so happy, can tell.

haha. then cabbed to airport to eat at swensens to celebrate nad's bday

mmm, funny funny things happened la

too many to say but will post up pics sooooon

got home at 7.30 and sigh-

tmr schhhh~

haha can see her(:

aalala, my phone so quiet nowadays...

so sad.. haha two more days as she said(:

to her; heyhey. haha hmmm must thank me okay

i took pic of your favourite person in css for you

it was funny cos when i saw the person

i was reminded of you.

haha i said hey and waved to him.

for you okayyyy

im sososososo nice:D

haha! hmmm i feel like calling you

but i scared la. HAHA x

anyway, imy

see you soooooon

im afraid

2007-07-15T21:02:00.001+08:00

it's just an awful feeling;

friday the 13th;

today was pretty normal, was let off at 1245 for acc trip.

went to CCHMS for it, the crossword and pairem up was funny.

err it was rather boring but alright luh.

got home pretty late cos met up with Ankita & Van before they left for the party

then took dinner and home.

saturday the 14th;

morning, had tuition then went for Drums.

finally got my book2. yay.

er then went to the station to meet mayvelle and mel.

trained to bugis. mmm met their friend then stayed till bout 7.30

and trained home with mayvelle.

met mum and we were off to Giant.

shopped till about....11.30?

omgaahhh, i could just die on the floor there.

sigh-

sunday the 15th TODAY;

errrrr yesyes skipped madrasah

met Anthea and Simin.

clever Samantha had to come late so we had to buy snacks at Giant

and cab to school.

left for esplanade

DSD was great. funny and comical. very entertaining.

took dinner with Nad, Thea & Kita at Alfiah Rest.

Kita's dad took me home and i grabbed my usb to develop the pic for Dasmond

ugh, i really really really feel darn awful.

~~FUCK .~~

~~i can't erase the fact that you're a distraction to me.~~

beautiful love:D

2007-07-12T19:47:00.000+08:00

there's an angel,

it's a miracle.

this morning, i thought things would be disastrous

but it was fine and good(:

i kept smiling and giggling to myself today.

mad.

okay so umm, lessons were alright.

nothing to complain about. haha

after sch, Nad came to meet us.

i saw her, i almost didn't know what to do.

haha then met Naq and we left for airport.

got there by about 4.30

ate and walked about till 6.

took train and walked home(:

sigh-

tuition. again. tonight.

why? no idea but tmr's gna be tiring cos of accounts carnival.

hope it turns out alright.

hehe, i get to leave school early and miss lit.

ah, i thought i'd miss like ss or sth. LOL

okayyyyyyy

ah, know sth,

today i saw her, i smiled to myself

today i saw my phone, i smiled to myself

today i thought of her, i smiled to myself

today it rained, i smiled to myself

today i hummed the song, i smiled to myself

today i smiled, because of you(:

Jenny by Click Five is a current favourite.

but What I have done by Linkin Park is the current earworm.

2007-07-09T18:40:00.000+08:00

ALOHA(:

ah this morning, i saw Shawn, y'know from css. haha

he looked..sleepy. okay anyway, today past by veryveryvery fast.

really, we had lit, phys,malay,chem and hist.

that's all

LOL

recess; i had to admit, i was really off in my mind.

i went mad. HAHA hi-la-rious

so then after school went to canteen to lunch with em

not exactly even lunch la, just drank and waited for Nad to start band

couldn't stay back today cos Naqibah had sth on and Anthea had to go off early.

so i was left to go home.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

cabbed home and soon started my editing hobby(:

till about 6, then off to taking dinner soon.

aww damn the tuition tonight. there's css and i have to miss it

whfsdhgkfshg-

nvm, i'll catch the results(:

toodles all<3

P/S: Tell me its real
this feelin that we feel
tell me that its real
don't let love come just, to pass us by
Try, is all we have to do
its up to me and you
to make this special love, last forever more

tell me it's real by K-Ci & JoJo

just when i thought that love could never be a part of me,

thats when you came along, and showed me happiness

brass knuckles

2007-07-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

goodnight loveeeeee

yao ni yong yuan shi wo de xiao ping guo(:

2007-07-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

LOVE'S GOT ME BAD, BABY.

hello(: today was super super GREEEEEN. headband earrings shirt socks ribbons hair sprays. whoa. haha will put in pics soon. mmm after school haha me and naqibah ended up going to mama shop cos we thought was already there but they were at the canteen so anyway we just lunched light there.

then off to cca office, pretty pissed with Jaziel. G.A.L. so then naqibah anthea and i took 17 to TM and walked abit. got myself a lolli! and them too. haha then went to Mayvelle's house for awhile. very funny la. nice place you got! then cabbed to EP with Naqibah to get her stuffs. had dinner with Mum again and walked home. haha long day but how fast is pass. yay, black nails for tmr(:

i can't wait to watch Transformers. finally, i hope the queues will be shorter since it's much later and i hope Harry P wont be a long queue either.

this feeling for you have gotten so much deeper. it's more, i don't even know the reason why. you make me smile with the slightest reason. i just feel really happy these few days and it's because of you. haha seems confusing but that's really how i feel(:

when our eyes met, i just couldn't help but melt xD

sing your heart out baby your happy

2007-07-04T16:53:00.001+08:00

sweetest drug(:

today, horoscope readings emphasized on my energy!

haha i've been really hyped up these few days. very weird but it was kind of a good thing.

lately, home's been pretty bitchy because of one person's doing.

i violently despise her. okay for school, it's been okay for today.

the day seemed to pass by quite fast. probably cos of accounts.

bank reconciliation is pretty much smooth.HAHA

hmm didn't go anywhere today.

my energy's drained a lil. phew-

LALALALALA!:D

maybe i feel happy cos of *! haha i guess(;

thank you for making me happy. haha mmm

i still haven't decide what to wear on friday! think GREEEEEN.

haha i'm suddenly reminded, Naqibah wants me to blog that i ate donut at her house yesterday and she found it hilarious. ? ( no link)

Okay okayyy, Don saw me today and gave me Famous Amos!

haha thanks don! anyway, class is having chalet in septemberrrrrr

yayyyy late night parties and ghost horror dares.

ah anyone got ouija board. =x!

hehehehe madness bombarded i wanna go out go out go out.

faster someone take me watch transformers and harry potter soon!

♥ I really, really, really like you.

turtle:D

2007-06-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

this tune in my head

*'s blog song is stuck in my head now.
mmm, nothing much to say. went to grab a bite with the clique.
Nad got bangs, Ankita & Anthea thinned their hair.
i was rather reluctant to cut bangs laaaa. haha
don't wanna regret after cutting. precious okay.
LOL, waited for Mum after that then left for eastpoint to develop pics
omg, i developed 6r pics of Das and me. haha
funny la. then cos Mum asked me where i got pics of the tattooed guy[ Pete wentz] was

i was like " wth you think i take the pic myself huh? obviously from com. haha"
and she went " ya.. how you get his picture?"
so i said" you think i dont know what you're thinking huh. i don't mind if i was the one who took the picture either."
HAHA and she walked off.
LOL (:

sigh-
okay fever's down for the moment and it's pouring outside.
and err haha
imy(:

2007-06-29T12:37:00.000+08:00

if you believe into my soul
i'd say all the words that i know.

HELLO(:
alright so yesterday 2806,
had school mass, SA feast day.
till bout 9.15. whoa the whole school managed to squeeze into one side of the court.
pretty amazing.

then hmm, after school, walked to bbt shop
about to reach, the rest disappear thinking we didn't know they left.
LOL Naqibah & I just continued our way.
sat and crapped out way with Aurelia, Ting Wen, Alex and Teri.
Alex and Teri left for ttrl so TW and A left to playground to meet Sarahs.
We left with them. haha till bout 3.30 went back to school to meet Anthea.
then stayed back till bout 5+ and cabbed home.
was a bad afternoon but i was fine by night.

Instead of going tuition, my fever came back so had to see the doctor,alone.
urgh, so then i had to wait for like 1hr+. good for me i got (: to keep me occupied.
and Anthea too. haha.
So then, i got me an MC from school and excuse PE for a weeeeeeek!
haha xP

right now, everyone in 3.6 is doing math in com lab and im here blogging!
haha will be going to meet up with the clique soon.
ah goodbye

♥ (:

2007-06-26T22:45:00.001+08:00

geraldine see!
Dasmond & us

Dasmond & meeeeeeeeee

i was in great fervor!

♥ tell her i love her, oh yeah, tell her i love her.

zhi dui ni shuo

2007-06-25T16:41:00.000+08:00

okayyyy so holidays are over and school just started today.
it's was alright i guess. morning, clique came to meet as usual.
Mayvelle gave me the necklace she bought. thanks ya!
mmm, then assembled in the hall and all. whoa, principal didnt have enough patience for us to settle down or sth. wts.(what the shit)
so anyway, we had homeroom till 9.15 and back to the timetable.

it was rather slack today. recess, finally! i had my muachi that ive been craving for.
haha,
i wish you meant what you said,
if only.
after school, it was pretty busy for me. omg, everyone was like shakeela this shakeela that this that that this. ?
concerning tonight's show. it's full house for sac tonight! :D
yeah so went to canteen to sit. then before we went up, we sang a birthday song for Elaine.
she turned 16 yesterdayyyyyy((:
each time our eyes meet((:
okay so then took work from eng tutorial and got home with Naq.
dyed her hair back and yes, later off to fetch Nad for the show.
ah, school, you're already gettin on my nerves.

♡ there's something special bout you.

2007-06-20T18:08:00.000+08:00

biarkan aku di sini untukmu

aku hanya ingin menghibur malam ini

malam yg pasti menyenangkan untukmu

dan tentu untukku

biarkan di sini aku bernyanyi

hanya untukku dan untuk menghibur kamu

dan aku yakin senyummu tulus dan jujur

hanya untukku

-----
Sun, left for Batam at bout 5. went to see Abg Yudhis's stall. omg, his popcorns are THE BOMB.
really, i might be selling it for sparks stall. you guys BETTER try it. damn nice!
mm got me pumps and bronze sandals. so niceeeee. haha okay.
Mon, did my hair and all. got me two bags, a red one for school & a black one for other purposes.
haha walked alot.
Tues, stayed at Aunt's place till about evening before we left for Megamall to get the ohsodelicious JCO & Donuts. it was 9pm already by then so we rushed to Batam Centre to get on the last ferry which was 10pm. whoa, the ride home was RAD.
there were little people and mainly Singaporeans, so there werent anyone pushing or rushing to get th good seats. Mom got me instant noodles and chips to munch cos we missed dinner.
ah, thereafter, we slept on the chairs. it was three in a row with a table in between two rows.
haha, slept for about half an hour and we reached Spore by 11pm.
got through customs and cabbed home.
tiring but i could still stay up! HAHA
slept at three and yup, another boring dayyyy.
really it was EXTRA boring today.
i seem to enjoy being overseas, it took my mind off things back here.
yeah and school's reopening soon and guess what, my hw is still left untouched(:
ahhhh i give up, i guess i better get started on it tmr.
even though i said that last week but it's okay! :D
i miss the clique. HAHA will be going out tmr with em.
i really really miss you so much, cant you even tell?
wait, i THINK you don't even know how much i miss you.

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND.

youre so irritating. urgh

2007-06-12T13:55:00.000+08:00

i still don't have a reason

okay yes, i'm finally back from Malaysia. Got home at Midnight on Sunday.
tiring but hell loada fun! LOVE YOU TERENGGANU PEOPLES!
shopped a lil. bought myself a huge spongebob! YAYYYY
haha :D

So yesterday, went to MDcorp for Campus Superstar to support Teri.
damn, her performance was KICKASS lah.
people, do look out for her okay. she's contestant F3.
vote vote VOTE. mmm, it was so nerve-wrecking during the results.
haha thankfully, she got in.
ah and yes, manymany people saw my oh so glam face with a pink whistle on tv.
GREEEATTT. lol
argh Teri looked like a doll. She was HOT. (:

so today, nothing much to do. my mood is rather blank.
i havent completed Acc, im so dead cos i forgot how to do cash book.
uhhhhh someone, bring me to Batam pleaseeee
i wanna see Mr. Batman. LOL
awwwwwh everyone's out and im here dreading it (:

OKAY TATA!

you walked beside me

2007-06-06T19:01:00.000+08:00

Pretty Holes

okay so lately, ive been doing so much shopping! like MAJOR WHOA.
yeah today, was supposed to go tm with MV but then cancelled so at about 4, went to get the stuffs i needed.
and i saw #. okay way wayyyyy shockked.

and yup, tomorrow, i'm off to pahang. awww goodbye Spore, hello Msia(:
yeap. but it sucks waking up at like what, 5?!
excuse me, i need to sleep okay.
the bus ride is gonne be like more than 8 hours or so.
so probably reaching there by like night.
im gonna miss my computerrrrrrrr

and I MISS MY CLIQUE OKAY
CLIQUE! IDK LA. YOU ALL BETETR BE FREE AFTER ME AND VANISHA ARE BACK.
i miss ya'll like fghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz!

and yes, i intend to pierce my lip but idk whennnnnnnnnn

oh love, you left me broken:D

i miss you

2007-06-03T14:15:00.001+08:00

ayeeeeee i don't wanna seem so pushy.

i take back the words i said in my previous post. -deleted.
it was in a heat of moment.
sorry. i don't wanna lose you.
not from my heart. not as my friend.

i realise, i can't do anything if im not the one in your heart.
instead, i should be happy for you. maybe the person you _ , _s you back.
i guess i just overreacted.

i'm real sorry if i had made things worse. wish i could take it all back.
shouldn't have acted this way. should have just learnt to accept things the way they were.

i just wanna say that i'll be here for you when you need someone to talk to.
& all this is not your fault. it's not your fault that you fell for someone else.
i wanna let you know, that i'll be here waiting(:

i just want to see you happy.
cosithinki'm in love with you.

just a friend to you

2007-05-28T19:13:00.000+08:00

SECRET LOVE-

heyho. last night, went to a pub called Amaran. it was so 'hungover'.
the toilet was shit but the music, drinks & people, they were kickass.
ah, alot of happenings there. i got home by 12.30 & i felt like death when i got home.
deadbeat alright. mmm, stayed up till 4 doing things. pretty silly actually.
okay so today, got up at 10. went to Ankita's house after a last minute situation.
Dyed hairs and all. Ankita's crib was like a one-day salon. So, yeah we had H'appyjuice'.
can't say it cos we're under 18. i almost puked but it was okay. dizzy feeling but i felt free for a second.
hmm, yes stupid. stupid. So had tuition for about an hour. tonight, there's campus superstar.
be sure to catch it at 8 pm tonight & look out for Teri Yeo (:
Sadly, there's lit tmr at 8am to 9.30am. so gotta get up like what, 7?
that's shitnees.

i feel like fcuk now. thank you. thank you so much.
sorry

Just a friend, That's all I'll ever be to you
Just a girl, who wants to be the centre of your world
But i ain't got much to offer but my heart and soul
And i guess that's not enough for you to notice me
I'm just a girl and I guess that's all i'll ever be to you

I tried to smile when i see others girls with you
acting like everything is okay
But oh, you don't know how it feels to be so in love
with someone who doesn't even know
My secret love.

okay so be happy(:
all i want is to see you smile

2007-05-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

QUITTING ON THE OBVIOUS.
you.

urgh. today, was freaking stupid lah. el sucked. mrs A didnt come so no math.
recess, (:
blah. after school, went down to canteen to take a quick bite before going up for the briefing.
good news is that i am roomates with Vanisha so yeah.
we cabbed to Anthea's house. 6.45, cabbed home.

shiznitz, shall blog more tmr.
im pissed.

over it

2007-05-21T21:16:00.000+08:00

i don't know why i'm feeling this way.it's completely not me.i'm so fucked up, i just don't wanna talk to anyone.past few days,been hiding this stupid rage but i can't take it la.i feel like as though i lost myself.i feel so lost, like i dont know wtf i'm doing.y'know, people think i'm some spastic girl off the street singing stupid tunes with my friends but no one knows me, actually.
i, myself, have not known me well enough.i've had too much at one go.i've seen too much in a short time.i just wanna stop time.seriously,i feel so useless.it somehow came to my mind that i've changed so much since last year.i just really feel not myself anymore.
istillgotthetemptaionsto#.
i really dont know what to do anymore.

e
d
a
l
b
please.now i cry alone in the dark.

sickinessy

2007-05-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

GOODDAYYYY!
okay this morning, i kinda woke up late so i got to school rather late
then turned out that we suppose to have lessons as usual.
DOT ah. english. we went through out paper 2 compre.
depressing, i couldn't remember what i wrote in the exam but it should be horrible.

recess after emath.
i felt so awful with my cold and cough.
for two seconds, i thought i wanted to die.
okay to had RE. Watched Touched By An Angel.
then ML, got back my total results. it wasnt too bad la, i guess
watched horror show then chemistry.

after sch, went to AV theaterette to get Naqibah then off to lunch with clique.
got to EP with Nad & Naq to collect my jeans, then walked home.
i guess thats today.

♥ you take my mind off the world

sicksick

2007-05-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

hey all.

omg firstly i need to start off by saying that i HATE the condition i'm in right now.
flu. cough. sore throat. fever. cold.
BLEAGHHH.

Friday 11/5

the clique went to chinatown. walkedwalked till clarke quey. oooh, we had chippy at Centre.
then off to bugis street. bought me a shirt i'm so in love with and earrings.
after that at about 6, went to eastpoint to get the shirts from ip zone.

met my mum then went off to the airport to send dearest Kak Liza off on her
honeymooooon! wowhee (:
then ate dinner at Popeyes and MRTed home.
drop dead tiring.

Sat 12/5

stupid day dont really wanna talk bout it. spent almost the whole day out.
got home pretty late. haha shan't elaborate any further.

Sun 13/5

Mother's Day. Got my mum a watch. yup, i knew she liked it. haha
then by evening, went to PP with my mum and sis to shop (:
it kinda got my mind off the problem at home.
thanks mummy.

Today

alright, so today i only managed to get my ML paper2 results. Thank God, I passed.
After school, went to Anthea's house. Her puppy is just AGAZILLIONTIMESADORABLE.
super super cute, i guess it was a black lebrador.
watched videos, crapped and all. and there, 5.00 i lost my voice. LOL
i literally couldnt even say a word. Damn did i feel like a mute.
haha took 9 home and went to ep. my mum got me the jacket i wanted. yay (:
Mum's been so nice to me eversince. haha
so yup i just got a fever and no tuition for me. HAHAHAHA
okay dot.
toooooodlydoo!

♥ Rapturous;

wooohheeeeee

2007-05-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

TRANQUILITY

According to HOROSCOPE readings,
i was suppose to have a bad morning
but i didnt (:
Had Math Paper 1 today. It was an okay paper, i can say
Wasnt too difficult. yay, maybe my guardian angel helped.
HAHA recessed(:
then did physics. physics got me braindead in Section B.

After school, went off to bbt shop to eat light with clique.
i miss those days we all used to crap at spiderweb and how we'd freak at ants to playing crap games to running in the rain to witnessing crimes scenes.
i miss it all.

Anyway, got home really early at about 1. Commed the whole day.
I wanna go starbucks to study. Anyone wanna company me? (:

--------------

Best friends
Ex-friends till the end
Better off as lovers
And not the other way around
Racing through the city
Windows down
In the back of yellow checkered cars

i miss it

2007-05-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

I GIVE YOU MY WORD,
i give you my heart

030507 ; a date i'll never forgive myself.

Social studies exam today.
i totally didn't complete writing at all
I unexpectedly had more to write but in the end, no time.
After paper, waited for Van, Nad and Ankita then Anthea & Naq went with me
cos i wanted to see my niece go school.
Walked home and we slacked at my place for the day.
Slept till about 3 then studied a lil, Thea had to go.
Then ordered Macs & ate with Naq.

Crap lah, i'm so miserable over the state of my ipod.
I hope nothing happened to it.
go to http://www.links2love.com/love_lyrics_47.htm
and relate me with my ipod.
it's just horrific ):

don't wanna talk bout it,
this so ruins my good exam mood.

♥ i'm broken.

golden

2007-05-02T19:06:00.000+08:00

GOLDEN

300407;

Had paper 1s today, it was fine but i guess i wrote crap in ML.

After paper, went to get present with Anthea.

010507;

went for tuition at 10, for once i thought i could wake up at 12

but noooooo. Anyway watched Drumline and studied Acc and ss till 6.

i forgot what happened after that.

020507;

it rained this morning.

paper 2s were okay. English was rather hard to comprehend.

ML was fine, i guess. managed to do it in awhile & slept.

it was a l-o-n-g day today

lunched at Alfiah, went to tamp library to study but received a call

from Samantha that Angela wanted me to visit her

So went off to CGH but 3+ -4.

talked to her for awhile, Jacinta Pamela Melissa and Alyssa came too.

Went to EP till about 5.40 and got home.

I'm addicted to FOB & Pete's hotness.

time seems to slow down each time i see you

oh, It's Mayvelle's Birthday today, so

Happy Birthday!

♥ so i guess you do have someone else in your heart...

2007-04-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

Golly, you seem to make me
fall for you even deeper.

SHE'S LIKE SO WHATEVER.

i went high last night, for some ridiculous reason. We had to assemble at the court instead to end off the syf performances. AB did well, actually, though i really feel there's something wrong with the SYF judges, no offence.

It was rather difficult to stay awake in class during social studies but i survived anyway. Recess, spasm please. I smacked my oreos onto Anthea until it broke. Perfect. But Elaine didn't waste my 40 cents and i got another packet of oreos. LOL.

I'm looking forward to the trip to Pahang in June with Van. It's gonna be perky alright.

Ended school, met Naqibah, Anthea & Van. Oh yeahhh Ankita got pretty sick with her fever and went home. ): Then we lunched a lil in school. spasm X 6^10. I followed Nad to get her phone at RTC then went down to slack a lil. It was like pouring already. Cabbed home with Mum & Nad then. Got home and tuitioned till 6. Tiresome day.

MSNing now. i hope it rains tonight. I've get to get a 6 hour sleep at all.

♥ Hanging by a moment;

lets get together baby

2007-04-26T19:02:00.000+08:00

OH SO INTRICATE!

anyway, stayed on in school till about 5 for Lit extra lesson.
ooh, i feel happy cos _ was there when i went down for break.
I was so nice as to give Simin the milo thingy k cos i didn't wanna bring up to class in case
Ms Yeo scolds, so i gave it to her. LOL.

Then cabbed home, bringing all my books home, with Ankita & Nad.
Nad & I seem so INTO tkm alot. haha.
i wish tuition was cancelled tonight, but it's not ):

Girl, you make me smile like i mean it.

♥ Butterflied tummy & temperature-dying hands.

now & forever my love

2007-04-18T20:27:00.000+08:00

What seems to be the problem, Misseur?

Cuckoodoodledoo, dickie.

We managed to figure the song and put in lyrics for
the Project POA this morning.
Idk why recess turned out that way but forget it.
I was so lethargic but high as well.
I felt so mixed up and for some reason, tmr's just gna be so emo.

After school, went to Bugis with Naqibah, Xue Ting & Catherine.
I got so high for no reason, apparently.
It was plain stupid. Naqibah was just being her hornyself.
Took prints and walked around.
& i wanna get a new bag for next sem.

Got home by 6.20 today.
I decided not to go TM. I'm so pms lah nowadays.
Super fucked up & i hate it.
i'mbottlingupeverythingcosidkwhattodoanymore.idkwhototellallmystoriesandmyproblems.let'sdie.

whateveh.
bitch of the year, baby,
bitch of the year.

ps: PLEASE GO TO:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=m8PIp0tKTcc
&
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4zd5lS8kNQ
for TERI's performance.

FREE ICE CREAMMMMM

2007-04-17T19:33:00.000+08:00

BEN & JERRYS IS LOOOOVVVVEEEEE

the rumours were out bright and early in the morning.
for those who didn't know, B&Js were having FREE CONE DAY.
yup, you saw it right.
FREEEEEEEE

so after school, Nadiya, Michelle, Naqibah & I cabbed to Downtown East to claim our FREE B&J cone. YES, it was satisfactoryfyingly DELICIOUS. then cabbed home. Naqibah came over.
Many stupid things happened. It was hilarious that we both went out of breath.

She left about an hour ago & I feel so shitty for no stupid reason.
Actually there is a reason, but it doesn't really matter anyway, does it?

I've got a murder confession to make,

i murdered me.

♥ Be my rescue

nownownownownow

2007-04-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

SIXTH OF APRIL;
i ♥♥♥♥♥ x a gazillion million that day.

TODAY ;

alright, today was ♥. A very delightful morning. Assembly, we had to watch modern dance perform. then PE, i had an MC so yeah.
English was okayyy. I sat with Sharmain & then recess.
I went a LITTLE off.
Math then Accounts.
Accounts was hilarious. Marcia was literally talking to her ownself in her lalaland.
I swear, I could have screamed for help. She found someone HOT ;)
Homeroom; WHOA. everyone went h-i-g-h.

After school, went to canteen to have lunch. Bought some food from 3.3's sparks stall. Yummylicious. Went up for tutorial.OMG, Mrs Boo is so PMS lah, don't wanna talk bout it. TSK.

Stayed back in school to wait for concertband to come back and cabbed home with Nadiya & Naqibah. Bah dropped by my house.
NAQIBAH! MY HOUSE SUPER NICE TO SLEEP IN RIGHT! SHIOKEST LAH. [:

crapped the day till 7. YEYENGSUCKS!
; baby, d'you know that i'm thinking of you?
; i just wanna know if you're thinking the same too
; did you feel that chemistry i felt?
; did you feel how strong our hearts connect?
; you stare was beyond what it seemed
; your smile was all that my heart deemed
; Baby, tell me if it's true for what i'm feeling
; Cos it's growing on to strong & i'm numb to every other thing.

♥ I'm too lost in you

feverrrrrrrrrrrrr

2007-04-03T21:46:00.000+08:00

Why does the skeleton cross the road ?

030407;
AYE! today was soso retarded. Hmm, Phys & Chem were alright. Phys test was do-able.
Sent little miss Marcia & Kim to sickbay. ah, dont wanna mention anything much.
RECESS; (:
Maths; that turtley came so yup, will be having him for Maths lessons from now till MYE.
Malay; oh i passed my test! [:
Hist; -
PC; Ms Loh came in today and did some survey bout yrself thingy. She demonstrated this 'relieve stress' breath thing. it was so hilarious, I swear I laughed like a doodlehead.
After school;
went to 7-11, NAQIBAH was SUPER NICE to TREAT me mashedpotato! yayyyyy!
then went back to school to meet Jaeyer. She & her hotness another case.
oh, i talked to XINER today. omg that was so forced la. haha! no la.
eh i know whats goingggg onnnn! [x

ANYHOOOOOOS, left school at 5.30 & cabbed home
oh shucks, i need to cut down on cab!

COMING UP WITH A FEVER

♥ would you care ?

ooooooohoooooooo270307

2007-03-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

270307
fabulous Naqibah. TYSM.
no words to describe it.
none at all.

280307
oh sweetness, went to TM after school with Elaine and her friends.
then left at like 6 for home.

when your eyes met mine;

if nothing lasts forever, would you be my nothing ?

how does she laugh
how does she cry
whats the colour of her eyes
does she even realise i'm here

2007-03-25T20:26:00.000+08:00

I MISS NADIYA!
hurhur so we all sent her off at the airport on Friday.
Emotionallllllllll.
it's gna be so bad for me cos she's practically everywhere i am in sch.
she sits beside me, she's my group partner, she's always leaning on me, she's always asking me to plait her hair, omgggggggggg
1 week of no-nadiya is just horror.

Let's just hope I don't get all emo tmr & the rest of the week.
NADIYA! i will mail you aite.

Can we please restart our friendshipppppppppppp?

my everything

2007-03-21T17:00:00.001+08:00

to my everything ;

madam, go check your 820..... phone and check the msg i sent you okay..
hope you read this.
sigh-

anyhoooos, i think i just wanna die
these few days are just not the best of the worst.

she* seems so distant.
idk what to do anymore.

youre* taking control of my mind.

loves

2007-03-11T21:34:00.000+08:00

let's play pretend.

oh well, i didn't have drums ytd and not for next week too.

probably going overseas by the end of next week too.

Relative's wedding at Johor & shop at Batam.

My sis-in-law bought me and webcam for my birthday

& my sis got me the REDHOT adidas watch that i've been eyeing on.

Drats. I've been cabbing alot & I need to save $.

So guess what the oh-so-great-news is;

I have school tomorrow & on Tuesday.

I'm probably going to make my IC on Tues after school.

then on Wed, will be having a workshop in school all the way till like 5.30

sigh. Don't even bother to call it march HOLIDAYS. tsk.

i hate this feeling i've been feeling recently.

Wish i could just erase what happened from 1st Feb till now.

nothing would go wrong and things would be just fine.

which is so not right now.

i need a TIMEOUT.

♥ you turned my life around.

old guitar

2007-03-04T18:50:00.000+08:00

with all my inspiration gone,
it's not getting me very far

like winter night screams & midautumn noons

like spring so still & butterflies out of caccoons

no movement no sound

no one else in town

like a plugged-in train & muted television

like a field of nothingness & blurred vision

no creep of insect no ray of light

nothing left to do but stay up all night

like patted windows & fresh scented dew

like every heartbeat of mine calling out for you

no one sees me tear no one hears my cries

no soul could even tell through my lies.

shakeela

I'm sittin' here all by myself

just tryin' to think of something to do

Tryin' to think of something, anything

just to keep me from thinking of you

But you know it's not working out

'cause you're all that's on my mind

One thought of you is all it takes

to leave the rest of the world behind

Alonelyseptember by PlainWhiteT's

♥ how disturbingly devine you are